I'm 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was my birthday as if everyone didn't already know and it was fabulous!!!! I know i can be a little annoying around my day...okay a lot...but hey it only comes once a year and since its soo close to the start of school...yuck...i have to make it extra special so i forget that i am leaving in one week for school...boo....i dont wanna leave my friends=(
Anywho...today was great...everyone wished me a happy birthday..even ppl i didn't expect to hear from so i feel very loved and no one is dead to me lol!!!!!! I love all of my family and friends!!!! I didn't really do much today I went to Old Navy with Mag and bought sum cute stuff and then I got ready for dinner at Olive Garden. My folks were nice enough to let me take sum of my ppls to dinner which ruled...I love cheese rav!!!!!! Afterwards we came home and watched the VMAs...they blew btw!!!
The best part of the night...besides the presents which were of course sweet...was the cake!!!! My mom let me get two cakes from Terminis...if u've never been to that bakery go...i've never had a bad thing from there...they rule!!! One cake was a light n yummy chocolate raspberry thing and the other was a strawberry shortcake roll...they were both amazing and im so eating them for breakfast in like 8 hours lol!!!! My presents were cool of course...mostly cash which is great!!! Laura got me a cute ring...kelly got me an awesome t-shirt and socks from Delias...which is now open in Deptford!!! Karen got me margarita glasses and a blender which will so be put to good use this semester in the bangin apartment o fun!!!! Me and Janine already claimed which of the four colored glasses we wanted!!!
I'm sad that my birthday is over...1- because my day is over and 2- this is my official last week with my friends...boo....but we are gonna hang out hardcore so it wont be soo sad to leave i hope=( And its only 364 days till my next birthday...i promised steve though i wont begin my countdown till like 200 days at least...so thats the last time i'll mention the count for a while..promise...lol........it will suck to leave my peeps but we r gonna be much better at keeping in touch too this year...im gonna actually like send some of those cards i bought for last year lol!!! And I'm gonna start becoming better at updating this blog...so I can be a beast like Steve and hit my 200th post!!!
On Tuesday me and the girls are hitting KOP so i can pick out my jeans that i want...my sevens...and spend some my birthday loot!!!!! hopefully on sum fabulous boots and of course a purse lol!!!!!!!! like a dont already have like 50 lol!!!!!! Then tuesday night its our last PARTY at Lau's!!!!! FIERCE!!!!
Well I'm beat....time for bed!!!!!!!!!
Thanks again everyone for an amazing birthday... I sweat u all!!!!!
P.S. If i ever open a candy store i will call it Treat Yield....lol Steveo!!!!!!!!!

MPIZZLE!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay so I really suck at updating this thing...but its not my fault...1- because nothing ever is and 2- i have been super busy this past month...i dont even know where august went...i remember it being like july and being down the shore then all of a sudden its 48 hours till my birthday!!!! today is laura's birthday so of course i called her at 10:26am cause we are both born at that time...exactly 48 hours apart...how creepy and cool!!!!!
In other news on sunday i am doing some sort of gay celebration for my day of birth since my family is lame and doesnt really seem to care its my birthday...but oh well i will still have fun cause its my day!!!!!
This past week I've been recovering from Marco Island...the trip was amazing!!! I love my girls...i mean u know ur good friends if u can be a car for a total of 40 hours and not kill each other!!! The house in Marco was amazing and Jared is awesome for letting us crash there...he even took us out to dinner...by the end of the week we were all spoiled...we never wanted to leave...the beaches are soo pretty and everything is just more fun when you are fo-rich lol!!!!!! But its nice to be home and hang out with everyone here!!!! Maybe we will get to go back someday!!!
Yesterday me and delia went and bought books at Stockton so we could avoid the mess of standing in line the first week of class.....I cant believe we move in next weekend...but im really excited cause its gonna be one huge party with me delia jen and christy!!!! But im sooo sad about leaving my home friends...this summer has been amazing aside from some gay moments of drama but that shit doesnt even matter to me cause ive had that much fun!!!
Anywayz thats about it.....btw a warning to all who read this....anyone who doesnt wish me a happy birthday on sunday is offically dead to me...goodluck!!!!!

I Know This Much Is True

Okay so I have been bitching about this book for sooo long....everyone kept telling me not to finish it...but I just finished the 891 pages about five minutes ago and I'm so glad I did. I've spent the last few days reading the second half of this book because I can't stand to start a book and not finish it and I just had a feeling that Wally Lamb and Oprah wouldn't dissapoint me and I was right. It may have been a little long and kindof strange in some places...but the last 150 pages were amazing....its weird how in the end I couldn't put down the same book that I've been hating for the past two months.
I feel like I have read my fair share of books and in my opinion its not a good book unless in the end you feel all emotional and like you have really learned something.....I know I'm being really sappy right now but thats cause this book was just amazing and I'm shocked cause I was really hating it for like the first 700 pages!!!! Wally Lamb got me...I am soo suprised how much I now love this book!!!! Its climbing the charts as one of the best books I've ever read!!

"This much, at least, I've figured out. I know this much is true."

Tonight was FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!

Well i got back from the shore yesterday and it was fun...it was really hot so i mostly chilled at the hosue..but i got read my book and veg which was nice...plus i ate like a pig...my folks took us out to dinner all the time...i've never had soo much shrimp..filet ...and crab in my life...omg it was amazing!!!!!!
Tonight i went over Lauras with my people...it was sooo much fun!!!! We ordered Dominos...because its 3 for $15 which is fabulous and their thin crust is my new obsession!!!! So we order three thin crusts but after waiting an hour we get three regular crusts...and i was sooo pissed i called and bitched out the girl and got three new free thin crusts!!!! i don't even care that i was mean because it just proves that if u bitch enough u can get stuff done...i usually try not to be a beast..but today i was just in a total bitch mood lol!!!!!!!
Tonight was also fabulous because i got to cross one more thing of my list of stuff to do before i die!!!!!! i went skinny dipping!!!! i don't even know how it happened it was one of those random moments...but it was soo fun...we are all gonna do it again when we are down in florida on the roadtrip...which is like a week away!!!!!!!! im not gonna lie skinny dipping is really much cooler than swimming with a suit on....when u get out ur not as cold cause ur not wearing a wet suit and there is sumthing very freeing about it lol!!!!!!!!!
on the ride home i was wondering does anyone else have a list of things they want to do during their life...mine includes...sky diving....getting a tatoo....riding an elephant...back packing through europe...going to a really weird named country like yemen.....going to china to see if their food tastes the same when ur actually there....owning my crazy mix of animals that i want (pony, kangaroo, three legged dog etc.).....well those are a couple of things on my list...which is rather long...but some of the rest i think i will keep to myself lol...thats about it...im gonna go read my book since i am almost done wally lamb...and its getting good now...only 300 pages to go!!!!!!!!! if anyone out there does have a list and wants to share some of their ideas...please leave me fun comments...peace out!!!!!

Laguna Beach!!!!

As if I didn't watch enough MTV already I am now hooked on Laguna Beach....it just gets me how these ppl are like sooo rich and have no real problems in their lives yet they act sooo dramatic like the world is ending....its hysterical. It is the weirdest show ever...all the girls are bitches and all the guys are retarted and yet I can't stop watching it. Its all Laura and Karen's fault...they both watch it and now they have worked together to force me into it.....I hate the fact that I'm addicted to it because they call it reality tv....but its soo not reality for any of the ppl watching it...the people on the show are filthy rich and their biggest problems are like showing up to party where someone else has the same shoes on as you or whose limo to go clubbing in on a friday night....who lives like that??? I mean I guess a lot of ppl really do have nothing better to worry about but come on can't MTV come up with a group of kids who are living in the real world with like crap part time jobs...annoying parents...and broken down cars. I think their next reality show should take place in the ghetto...like right here in B Dubs!!!!!

Shake It Off!!!!

Okay so first off....I can't believe its already August!!!! I mean I love this month because its the month of Jackie...thats right everyone who reads this should now be thinking about what fabulous things you are going to buy me for my birthday...its only 25 days away!!!! But this month also kindof blows because it always means school is starting again soon. Thank God I really love college and I'm super excited because I'm living with the best three roomates ever or else I'd be super bummed....I mean this summer has rocked and I sooo don't wanna leave all my home friends for another nine months...but now that we had this past year and I've seen that the seperation didn't change a thing...I'm okay with the idea of doing it all over again.

This past week has been awesome...my folks are still down the shore and I love just chilling in the house without them like breathing down my neck all day...if I wanna sleep till 1pm...I don't get why that bothers them..but it does?? Plus them being gone gave me a chance to throw the most awesome party ever...the SBS reunion was fabulous...omg I had sooo much fun...I've really missed all of our old gang so it was awesome to see them...I gotta admit I was afriad it might be weird at first but it really wasn't at all...and I'm guessing everyone liked it as much as me cause they all keep asking when r we doing it again lol....maybe next year.

In other exciting news the 2nd road trip...FLORIDA...is approaching...could I be any more exicted...hell no!!!!!!!!!! This last month at home is all about bonding with my friends!!!!! I love my friends and since we seem to be fairly drama-free recently life is good. Because drama really sucks...I honestly think that is like the biggest thing that has come out of this summer...I'm really starting to relax and try not to give a shit about the drama....which is really tough because oh how I love to stress about everything...but I'm making sum progress...baby steps. I've realized I was getting way too upset about shit I can't change and I need to just move on and focus on me....so that my plan for this last month.....hope everyone is having a good august so far...peace!!!!!!!!!

Run Away With Me!!!!

Okay so I haven't posted on here in forever and I'm feeling kindof bad about it=( I've been really busy with stuff... I don't even know what...this summer is going by way too fast...I can't believe I move back to school in a month!!!!!!!!! I have like nothing ready for my apartment.
Not much else has been going on...I'm either helping Karen with wedding plans...working.....or hanging out with my ppl. I'm trying to get things organized so that the 30th is cool...a lot of ppl said they were gonna come so it should be pretty good...Laura wants to have a drunken slip n slide contest in the backyard so it should be interesting!!!!
Tomorrow...well acutally later today...I'm leaving for OC for the weekend and I'm really glad!!!!! Some people are being really gay right now and I'm glad I'm getting like three days to get out of the drama of life....plus its my first vacation so far this summer!!!! Thank god Marco Island is coming up soon....road trip round 2....I can't f-ing wait!!!!!!!!

Mr. & Mrs. Unrealistic!!!!

Okay so I just got back from seeing Mr. & Mrs. Smith and I've come to the conclusion that Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie are pretending to be together as a PR stunt so someone will acutally promote their shit movie. I mean I can see the appeal in the fact that they are like two of the prettiest celebrities in Hollywood, but other than that I can't see why people liked this movie since it was no different from any other overly volient spy-type piece of crap film. One of the major flaws which is usually true of this type of movie is that the main characters get shot at like 1 trillion times by other professional spys and yet they never die. At one point Brad Pitt gets hit with a knife in the leg but that doesn't seem to even phase him....yeah cause thats real!!!!! Second at the end in the big fight scene (which takes place in sum random department store) Brad and Angelina are running from the bad guys and all of a sudden they change from being in their underwear to being in full on spy gear...yet they had no supplies with them....total crap!!!! Third..in the last scene Brad and Angelina who are in their bullet proof suits that appeared from no where are kicking ass and killing like 4 million bad guys who are supposed to be professional spys sent to kill them...here's the part that gets me...if these are also professionals after them and they keep getting shot in the chest...where is their freakin body armor!!!! I guess they didn't have any magically appear on them!!!!!
Okay now I am officially done bashing this movie. And yes I know I'm being a little overly critical becuase it is just a movie...but screw that!!!! When I'm supposed to be paying F-ING $9...yup it went up another $.25 to see a damn movie...I expect it to be good...or at least somewhat realistic. Basically this movie was 5 minutes of funny banter between Brad and Angelina and 2 hours of stupid ass fights...sorry to anyone reading this who feels I had given too much away or ruined the movie for you....but the way I see it...I just saved you from losing $9 and two hours of your life...like I did!!!!!!!

What's Next?

Okay not to get all hysterical like I'm sure a lot of people are doing but what happened today in London is pretty damn scary. I mean its weird to think that like so many people were just randomly on their way to work and bam!! Its been a while since 9/11 and it was like people finally started to feel a tiny bit safe and now they realize there's no such thing as safe when stupid people are blowing up everything. Its scary to think that ppl. are so insane that they are willing to sacrafice themselves to kill others. And that we are really not safe anywhere. Like people our age don't have enough shit to worry about with school and money and shit, now we have to think about being caught in a terrorist attack when we go to a major city or mall or airport. And I don't care how bad this sounds but its hard not to be a little worried around Middle Eastern men. I know thats racial profiling and that not all Middle Eastern men are terrorists, but so far all terroritsts are men from the Middle East....so excuse me for looking twice when I see one sitting next to me on my next flight.
It's just sad that people are now like holding their breath waiting for sumthing bad to happen when we are supposed to be the most powerful country in the world....stupid ass Bush better do a better job protecting our asses or after this next term we should kick his ass out and make him go live over in the Middle East...if he can't do his job right as far as I'm concerned they can have him!!!!!

Happy 4th!!!!!!

This was a great 4th of July weekend!!!! Friday night I babysat which is always good cause I made money!!!!! Saturday I went to my fo-cousin Eddie's graduation party and saw all of my crazy family...they liked my hair so that made me feel good cause my family is like me...brutally honest. Saturday night I went shopping at like 10 with Laura and Janine...ACME is just more fun late night...we needed to pick up some shit for the bbq on sunday!!! Sunday was my bbq and it was fabulous if I do say so myself!!!! It was really fun and a lot of ppl came and the food rocked!!!! I got to see Robyn and Zoe, and we got to meet Steve's work friends finally lol, and in the end it turned into a mini SBS reunion when Eachus and Kelly showed up!!!! We talked about possibly making my July 30th party an SBS reunion, but if not it will still be an awesome party!!!! Today I pretty much did nothing...watched tv and hung out with Karen talking about wedding stuff...looking up songs and favors and such. Then Kevin came over and we all had a nice little family bonding bbq with the leftover food from yesterday!!!!
In other news...Laura made me make a facebook the other night so if anyone has one and reads this..add me to ur friends and leave me messages!!!

I finally did it!!!!!!!!!!

I can finally cross one thing off my summer to do list!!!!!!!!!! I cut my hair off for Locks of Love!!!!! And I'm so happy about it!!!!!!! It came out really cute and very un-me....the bangs make me look kindof dark and punkish..which is strange but fun!!!!! My hair color even looks darker now and I didn't change the color lol!!!!! I did it yesterday and I was so afraid it was gonna look bad but I brought a picture with me to Rizzieri's and the girl who cut it did such an awesome job!!! I sweat Rizzieri's that place is awesome!!!! The girl who did it was new but she did an awesome job and it only cost me $25 and I even got makeup put on for free cause of their new free pampering thingy....which rules!!
I was really nervous about what ppl would think of my hair...but I really liked it so I was hoping everyone else would too!!!! Last night I went to Janines to hang out and saw Steveo, The Race, Robyn and Zoe!!! They all liked the hair so that was good and it was sooo nice getting to see Robyn again and Zoe...I invited them to my 3rd of July BBQ so hopefully they can make it and party with us!!!!
Today I hung out with Kelly after babysitting....we went to a movie and then shopping!!!! I hadn't hung out with her in a while so we needed to catch up and do one of our girly outings!!! I didn't tell her I cut my hair so she was suprised when she saw me...cause I was supposed to cut it short like a year ago lol!!!!
In short I'm super glad I cut my hair....my head feels way lighter..and my hair feels so nice and soft!!! Its funny how a really good haircut can make you feel so good about urself...I'm trying not to sound vain but I'm really liking myself right now and I can't stop looking in the mirror...but I'm sure that will end soon lol!!!!
On a somewhat sad note....while I was measuring my hair the other night to see that I had ten inches I decided to see how tall I really am.....as I figured I'm just shy of 5 ft.....the bad part...when you have scoliosis your armspan doesn't match your height....so if you want to see how tall you would have been if you didn't have a bad back you measure you armspan...I haven't done this in years and the other night I found out I would be 5'4!!!!! How much does that suck!!!! Not that being short is all that bad....but I always said I want just like another 3-4 inches and thats what I would have been=( Thank god I have my pretty hair to make me feel better=)
I'm beat....I'm gonna go read my book so I can reach goal of 21 cause I'm still on this stupid Wally Lamb book...damn that Wally!!!!!!

Bye Bye Hair!!!!!!!!!!!

Well now its official....as of 3pm tomorrow my hair will be gone!!!!!!!! I'm really nervous that its gonna look muy bad!!!! I have like 12 pictures of how I want it done so hopefully the chick at the hair salon knows what she's doing!!!!!
In other news...this week has been pretty cool!!!!! On Friday night I went down the shore with the girls!!! We got to go to the Casa Romano...dude I love that house...Babs takes such good care of us...she made us such yummy food!!!! Plus we finally got to see Deanna...it had been way tooo long!!!
Yesterday Karen and I hung out and worked on Wedding Plans....apparently being her slave falls under my duties as maid of honor. We were using that website the knot.com.......its acutally really cool....we got her all registered and it helps you budget stuff and look for cool junk!!!! I can't believe all the crap we have to take care of already when according to the counter on the knot.com its still 684 days till the wedding. Right now Karen and Kevin are focused on locations...they are leaning towards country clubs....and the guestlist which is huge right now!!!! Yesterday while Karen napped I...being a good sister...looked up different cakes, dresses and invitations and saved pictures online for Karen to browse....it works out really well cause we have very similar tastes!!! Its weird how much stuff has to be done for one little wedding...well if Karen gets her way one big wedding....its good that we have those 684 days lol!!!!
Thats about it...today I'm just hanging around the house and bracing myself for the loss of my hair...tomorrow after my appt. I'm supposed to be going to Laura's to swim...hopefully I won't look like poop=(

Holy Mother!!!!

I can't believe Karen is getting married. It makes me feel really old. I have known about it for about a month and it was killing me not to tell everyone...but Kevin wanted it to be a suprise!!! He asked her while they were in Florida on vacation!!! I helped him pick out the ring...its soooo pretty and I'm sooo glad Karen likes it!!! Its just sooo weird to think they are really gonna get married...its cool though cause I always knew they would wind up together...they have been together off and on for the past ten years...I can't believe its been that long...when Karen said that the other day it sounded really odd but they did first meet her first year at GCHS!!! Anywayz I'm super excited because I get to be in a wedding...and even though they aren't planning to get hitched till like May 2007 thats still awesome.....since I'm the maid of honor I get to help plan the bacholerette party and shower and stuff.....the only thing that sucks if that even then I still am not legal...I hate being the youngest!!!!
Other than the engagment this has been a fairly average week....I had work...hung out with my friends since everyone is away or working this weekend....but I guess it worked out well because family and friends have been dropping by all weekend to see Karen's ring!!! Last night my little cousin Nicholette came by with Kathy and me and Karen told her the story of Inky and Finky the two dinosaurs living in our backyard...I know what some ppl out there are thinking...yeah my family does smoke crack....this is an old story that my dad made out like 20 years ago and told every kid in the family when they were little...growing up we thought if we were bad we'd get thrown over the fence and eaten...yes my family is that sick and twisted...so of course since me and karen are such good ppl we decided to terrorize the next generation lol!!!!
Well thats about it...tomorrow is fathers day so I get to cook dinner!!!!!! But I have no clue what to make so I'm gonna figure that out tonight I guess!!!! Hopefully I will get to hit the beach this week and its my goal to make my hair appt because I have to do it...I keep telling myself its just hair...and I think I'm starting to believe it lol!!! Gonna go watch a movie....peace out ppl!!!!!!!!!!!

You've Officially Been Jack'd

This is one of those things I forgot to mention the other day when I was typing my blog....I have decided to create my own show...I am stealin Ashton's idea of punk'd and I'm going to prank my friends all summer with my new show Jack'd...I have already thought of sum pretty funny ideas...so watch out...you might be next!!!!! Steveo was the first to be officially JACK"D!!!!!!!!!
I also forgot to mention that me janine and steveo are starting our own band lol!!!!!!!! We are gonna call ourselves three hot chicks..and steveo will be wearing a chicken suit...yeah this idea is really retarted and never going to happen but it made me and janine laugh for like an hour the other night lol!!!!!!
This weekend was fun...on friday I hung out with Nick and got the tour of Gloucester City and then beat his ass at video games..cause I rule at Mario Party lol!!!!! Saturday me and Delia went to Jen's dance thingy...she is soooo good...she's been dancing for forever...it reminded me of being little and going to see Karen dance...i love watching the little kids..some of there costumes we're almost as funny as Karen's golden nugget or chicken suit lol!!!!! Anywayz Jen did an awesome job and looked really pretty in her sparkly blue dress!!!! It was soo great getting to see Jen and Christy cause we haven't really hung out since everyone works exact opposite schedules lol!!!! But we shall have all of next year to party in the apartment...Christy brought us all back shot glasses from myrtle beach...they will be put to good use!!!!!!!!
Tonight was awesome....Janine and the race came over to party since our folks we're both at James grad party!!! We ordered sum food and watched tv....we watched Ellen do stand up on comedy network...dude Ellen is the woman!!! Her show is sooo funny and her stand up is awesome!!!! She makes me wanna be a stand up comedian and with my retarted friends and family..no offense to those reading this lol.....but anywayz I think i could have a career!!!! I mean all you do is tell a few family stories....like spike tales, the wedding of the uglies, and the adventures of the young and useless and I'm a hit!!!!!!!!
Its funny how after you've been laughing a while everything seems funny...like I was on the phone bugging poor in pain steveo and i couldnt stop saying really retarted stuff and laughing....and the race was talking about what if the names of sum things were switched around like what if bus meant penis and penis meant bus...well i think everyone can see where this is going....pretty soon we were saying stupid shit about the penis driver and riding the penis to school lol...boy we can get pretty dumb when we wanna lol....i love us...it was sooo much fun and now I must go to sleep cause I'm beat from all this stupid stuff......hopefully on tuesday we are all hitting KOP cause i need to shop and I want my cute urban purse!!!!!!

Crazy Busy

Wow...I haven't updated this beast in a while...sorry to anyone who is pissed by my lack of dedication lol!!!!! Anyways summer is going pretty well so far...this past week was my third week of babysitting....both girls are sooo cute and they are really starting to know me now so thats really fun and makes things go a lot smoother!!!! Its always really fun to hear little kids say your name...Alyssa is three so she is much easier to understand...but Abby is only two and when she says my name sumtimes is comes out -ackie or something that sounds like ducky lol!!!! Anywayz I love my job...I'm getting paid to play all day!!!!!
Other than work I've just been hanging out with my friends....we hit the beach for our first official summer trip on monday....it may have been 90 here but the beach was chilly and the not sunny at all....so my tan is still MIA....but at least i found out from my derm that i am allowed to go in the sun and i won't die cause of the accutane....on that subject i think my skin is finally starting to clear up well and i am a lot less greasy looking lol!!!!! but i dont want to jinx it lol!!!!
I still havent cut off my hair....i have to make the appt still...I can't stop chickening out...I really love my hair so this is very hard for me....its my goal to do it before July lol!!!!!!
Last night I watched the mtv movie awards with Karen...they were pretty good...I was glad to see the ppl from the notebook got best kiss cause they were sooo cute in that movie...that is one of my favorite books!!!! I'm still reading I Know This Much is True right now....its pretty good but I'm only like 100 pgs in right now...and I've got 800 to go...its the longest book I think I've ever read so its a lot to take on lol...i feel like i'll never get it done!
Today I went shopping with big mag...even though I have a decent amount of money in my bank account thanx to work it still rocks when big mag buys me stuff!!!! I got sum cute shirts but was too lazy to try them on...hopefully they look cute!!!!
Thats about it for now...this blog is a little random and boring...its funny cause i always think of interesting stuff that i wanna put on here and then when i sit down to finally type sumthing my mind goes blank..if i remember what the hell it was i wanted to say maybe i'll post again later lol....peace out all!!!!!!!!!

It Just Never Ends

Far warning this isn't a very happy post....it just seems like sum things in life never get any better...that whole one step forward two steps back totally describes me right now. I have decided I have way too many things I'm trying to deal with at once and nothing is really working out. My summer goals are getting shot to hell....I'm not gaining like any weight so my mom is up my ass and I can pretty much kiss that puppy goodbye. I was doing kick ass with the exercising but that only lasted like a week...no big suprise there....my new book is like 800 pages and I haven't read it in days and its only my third of the summer...and I haven't scheduled my hair appt. or my teeth whitnening thing cause I'm lame.
It just seems like there is no time for anything between work and dealing with so much medical shit. If I have to worry about taking one more f-ing pill or going to one more doctor appt I'm gonna scream!!! I take 7 pills a day and I'm 18...I can't even imagine how many I'm going to take when I'm an old woman. And because of these stupid ass pills I have to get my blood drawn like every month so I spent my afternoon at the lab which is sooo much fun...I can't even count the number of times I've been stuck with needles between surgeries, illnesses, and just random blood draws...at this point I could do the damn draw myself!!!
The worst part of all of this doctor shit is that just when you think ur making sum progress you get knocked on ur ass.....since I've been going on for a while now I will give the short version of this story....insurance companies are cheap assholes who don't seem to understand the difference between reconstructive and cosmetic....like really whats a couple thousand dollars to sum stupid ass big company...I guess its too much to ask that they have a little compassion. It just sucks to know that one ass who read my claim letter may have changed my fate....I'm gonna appeal their decision...but I'm sure I won't get it overturned...and I won't be able to afford my surgery for a long time.
Well thats about it.....I always said I was never gonna write such personal and depressing shit in my blog but its 1:30am and I have no one to yell at or cry to so too damn bad for anyone who actually reads this!

Busy Weekend!!!!

This past week weekend was sooo busy...these past few days have gone by way too quick...I can't believe I already start work tomorrow!!!! Its really good though because I need the money and a good reason to wake up early....I've been sleeping till like 12pm and that just wastes the whole day....but no more from now on since I have to be up and out before 8am like three days a week!!!
So to recap my weekend....Friday I went to Deanna's with Janine to help her get ready for the wedding she went to with Paul!!! Her dress was soo pretty!!! And Laura got back from Florida so we got to see her for the 1st time since Spring Break!! It was great hanging out just us girls.....it was a preview of how awesome this summer is going to be!!!!
Saturday I was a good kid and went to Philly with big mag to visit my Gram....there house is sooo crazy cause my aunt and cousin are nuts..but I love seeing my little cousin Ashley..shes 5...and about the funniest little kid ever....she loves to sing and she knows all the words to every popular radio song...her favorite is Somebody Told Me by the Killers and she knows all the words and can sing way better than me lol!!!!
Sunday I went shopping with Mag and Karen and bought 11 pairs of shoes...so me and Karen are now the Hilton sisters of Famous Footwear lol...I got such cute shoes...I love sparkles lol!!!! Sunday night all of us went to Buca di Bepo in Cherryhill and it was really good...we met Laura's friend from school Gil....then we hung out back here!!!!
Today I woke up early and went shopping with Karen for a dress for a wedding she's going to with Kevin...she got the cutest one from Arden B. this new store in Cherryhill...its sooo fabulous and its green...which is our favorite...god if I were rich I would seriousily buy everything I saw lol!!!! We hit up Applebees for lunch!!! I love their Sampler...soo yummy!!!!!!!!!
Well thats about it...everyone is coming over tonight to hang out!!!! Gonna go watch my tape of Grey's Anatomy before then!!!!

Can't Chicken Out Now!

Cutting off my hair and donating it to Locks of Love is a goal I've had for a long time but never made good on because I have chickened out at like my last 12 haircuts and just got it trimmed. I even had a bet with Kelly last summer that we would both cut off our long hair that we grew for like two years and get really cute short haircuts like Mandy Moore for college....Kelly did...I chickened out=(
Not this time....I know how I wanna get it cut...a little shorter than shoulder length...fairly simple like Jennifer Aniston in that one season of friends toward the end...with slight bangs on the sides....and I have like 11 inches I can donate and still have enough hair to do this....so really if I don't now I'm just being selfish. I think I'm going to make my appt. with Matt for not next week but maybe like the Monday after...that way I can have two weeks to say goodbye to my hair...I also need to find someone to go with me to get it done because I don't wanna do this alone=(
In other news...Yesterday I went shopping with Kelly...we hit up a thirft store...it was fun lol....as most ppl know its not really my thing but it was okay...me and Kel bought a bunch of really cheap books....I got 7 for like $4...so that saves me sum money I would have spent at Barnes and Noble....and the books are actually good..hardcover...and by actual ppl lol like Mary Higgins Clark and I got three books from Oprahs Book Club....my reading motto...if Oprah says its good...it is!!!!!!!!! So if anyone is a geek like me and Kelly and likes to read...hit up ur thirft store and save sum money!!!
Last night everyone came over and we watched American Idol...I knew Vonzell was going home...but I wish it were Bo Bice...Vonzell always had such cute clothes and Bo just needs to shave and brush his hair....I'm sorry but I think the American Idol has to be at least kindof attractive...and I don't think that just because Bo is supposed to be a rocker or what not that is an excuse for looking nasty! So now I'm hoping Carrie wins cause Bo Bice needs to go Bo Bye!!!! Well I'm going to go enjoy what is left of my last week of doing nothing and staying in my pajamas till 2pm because next week I start babysitting and I have to be up at like 6:30 am!!!! Peace out homefries!!!! Leave me sum comments ppl!!!!!

Summer is fabulous...need I say more....

I love Summer!!!!! Its sooo pretty and relaxing...there are so many things that make summer rock...the beach...hanging out with friends...eating water ice...driving with the windows down and the sunroof open...I realized today that I love to drive for long drives in the summer and turn the radio all the way up!!!! Today I got to drive down to Deanna's to pick her up because we had to go on a mission for her dress for the wedding...she needed it for this saturday cause shes going with Paul....the new boy in her life...hes nice..we met him saturday...I approve lol...anywayz we got a really pretty pink one at Macys...thats right Deanna is wearing pink ppl and she didn't even bark once in the store..lol!!!!!
I'm excited because I'm writing this blog...which is long overdue according to Steve...sorry to Steveo and the rest of my loyal blog readers...anywayz I'm writing this on my laptop because Jack finally figured out how to work the wireless router thingy!!!! Yippy!!! So that was exciting today!!!!!
My weekend was pretty fun...friday I just chilled at home and watched tv...I was tired after a long day of shopping with big mag...and saturday I went to Janine's to watch Meet the Fockers and play poker...both very fun even though I lost...we also watched old episodes of Guts..that show is soooo funny I wish they still had it for ppl our age...I wanna be on it lol!!!!!
Last night I watched Survivor with my Dad cause thats our show...I was sooo excited that Tom won!!! He desevered it even though I thought Ian was a cutie lol!!!!!
Now I have to go watch my tape of Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy with Karen...I love tv lol!!!! Janine and Steved might come over tonight to hang out...if not we are all gonna party on wednesday hopefully!!!! Thats about it...peace out ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Will Call This The Forever Long Blog!!!!!!!!

Anyone who actually survives and reads this entire blog deserves a pat on the back....its been a really long time since I posted so here is whats new in Jackie's world!!!!!
So far this summer has been pretty awesome...I've only been home officially one week today..but its been a good week!!!! I did a lot of sleeping and eating..and of course seeing my fabulous friends!!!!
Thursday us girls went to KOP....god I love that mall!!! I said I wasn't going to buy much...but of course I walked into Delias and fell in love with these awesome capris and a skirt and t-shirt...so of course I just used my debit card...the debit card is such a great thing...but I should be baned from using it...it has soooo much power lol!!! Then of course we ate at the Cheesecake factory...cause what is a trip to KOP without cheesecake...Jen and Christy had never been there before...we all loved it!!!! Snickers cheesecake is officially my favorite!!!!!
Saturday was sooo fun...everyone went to Reading, Pa to visit the Vales at their new casa!!! I loved riding in the Delia's van...with Mr. Delia going 48mph on 202 it made for the funniest drive ever!!! Me, Steveo and Delia crammed into the back of the van lol...we brought snacks for the ride home just in case we got lost again lol!!!! Other than the crazy ride...the visit was great....Reading is really pretty and hilly lol and it was just like old times hanging out with Robyn..hopefully we will all get to party this summer!!!!
Yesterday was of course Mother's Day...since Mag hates everything we buy here me and Karen made the mistake of getting her nothing...so yesterday morning she was all upset that we didn't get her anything so while she was at church I drag a hungover karen to 4 stores looking for freakin Phantom of the Opera on dvd!!! All sold out eveywhere...stupid movie...who buys that anyway!!!! So we had to slip an I.O.U on Mags card...she wasn't impressed...esp. since Kevin bought her a candle...so we are looking bad...but we did make dinner...tacos...yum!!!!
Last night I had to tape Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy because we went to my cousin Meghann's apartment for Kathy's birthday..it was fun...her apartment is really cute...I want my own place...I miss the dorm!!!! Boy never thought I'd be saying that l0l!!!!!
I know were are only a week into summer...but I've been sucking at the summer goals so far...the only thing I've done is finish a book so I only have 20 more to go lol....I also started taking accutane so now I'm not allowed to spend long amounts of time in the sun so that my kill my goal of being tan...but if it helps clear up my skin...I'm willing to stay pale...I just have to remember to take the pill for the next 20 weeks...thats till like September...I know it will go by fast cause its summer but September feels like its a million miles away!!!!
Okay I know I forgot a bunch of stuff and this blog isn't as long as I planned but oh well...I'll try n keep updating more often so someone....Steve....doesn't yell at me lol!!!!!!!!