It's an interesting feeling....

Not caring is really starting to work for me....I feel like I've become a little more relaxed about classes and work and I think its for the better. I'm trying to focus on just doing what I can and managing my time so I don't run myself into the ground. I think I have in the past been too hard on myself for not doing things perfect or for finishing all my tasks on time and now I'm starting to realize in real life shit happens and that's okay. Working at my internship has made me a lot more relaxed and I think its really making me a better social worker. I still care a lot about doing my work well and being on time, but I am starting to accept that I can't fix everything and that I shouldn't sweat all the small stuff. Even though I am feeling more relaxed I still haven't had much time to update this blog in forever. Things have been very busy at school and work, but its been a good busy. I had an interview with my sen sem professor today and she said some really positive and nice comments about how she feels I will be when I enter the field for real next year. It is always nice to hear supportive words and positive feedback so that pretty much made my day. The fact that my second class got out an hour early didn't hurt either. I can't believe this semester half way over...next week we are picking classes for our very last semester at Stockton....I am finally feeling very old!!! Where did the four years go???? I am excited to graduate, but a part of me doesn't want May to ever get here. Right now I am extremely torn about whether or not I should start grad school right after graduation or if I should take a year off. People keep telling me I will lose momentum if I stop, but I really don't see that becoming a huge issue. I'm not just going for a Masters because I should, but because I really do want to have one and maybe eventually a PhD. So taking a year off shouldn't alter my feelings too much and it would give me a chance to be in the field and earn some money towards tuition.
Other than the grad school issue everything is going smoothly. I am super excited about halloween!!! I found an idea for a very creative costume to wear to the party on saturday!!! I am also very excited because thanksgiving is approaching aka my fav holiday which means FOOOOOOD!!!!!! And look out cause this year I'm cooking!!! I even bought the cutest apron to wear so I look professional!!! I've been watching a lot of food network to gear up for the adventure. I am in charge of all side dishes and making one of the desserts! I am also in charge of keeping an eye on the bird, but not actually in cleaning and stuffing cause its too heavy for me to lift lol!!! Anyways it should be a great adventure!