It Just Never Ends

Far warning this isn't a very happy post....it just seems like sum things in life never get any better...that whole one step forward two steps back totally describes me right now. I have decided I have way too many things I'm trying to deal with at once and nothing is really working out. My summer goals are getting shot to hell....I'm not gaining like any weight so my mom is up my ass and I can pretty much kiss that puppy goodbye. I was doing kick ass with the exercising but that only lasted like a week...no big suprise there....my new book is like 800 pages and I haven't read it in days and its only my third of the summer...and I haven't scheduled my hair appt. or my teeth whitnening thing cause I'm lame.
It just seems like there is no time for anything between work and dealing with so much medical shit. If I have to worry about taking one more f-ing pill or going to one more doctor appt I'm gonna scream!!! I take 7 pills a day and I'm 18...I can't even imagine how many I'm going to take when I'm an old woman. And because of these stupid ass pills I have to get my blood drawn like every month so I spent my afternoon at the lab which is sooo much fun...I can't even count the number of times I've been stuck with needles between surgeries, illnesses, and just random blood draws...at this point I could do the damn draw myself!!!
The worst part of all of this doctor shit is that just when you think ur making sum progress you get knocked on ur ass.....since I've been going on for a while now I will give the short version of this story....insurance companies are cheap assholes who don't seem to understand the difference between reconstructive and cosmetic....like really whats a couple thousand dollars to sum stupid ass big company...I guess its too much to ask that they have a little compassion. It just sucks to know that one ass who read my claim letter may have changed my fate....I'm gonna appeal their decision...but I'm sure I won't get it overturned...and I won't be able to afford my surgery for a long time.
Well thats about it.....I always said I was never gonna write such personal and depressing shit in my blog but its 1:30am and I have no one to yell at or cry to so too damn bad for anyone who actually reads this!

Busy Weekend!!!!

This past week weekend was sooo busy...these past few days have gone by way too quick...I can't believe I already start work tomorrow!!!! Its really good though because I need the money and a good reason to wake up early....I've been sleeping till like 12pm and that just wastes the whole day....but no more from now on since I have to be up and out before 8am like three days a week!!!
So to recap my weekend....Friday I went to Deanna's with Janine to help her get ready for the wedding she went to with Paul!!! Her dress was soo pretty!!! And Laura got back from Florida so we got to see her for the 1st time since Spring Break!! It was great hanging out just us girls.....it was a preview of how awesome this summer is going to be!!!!
Saturday I was a good kid and went to Philly with big mag to visit my Gram....there house is sooo crazy cause my aunt and cousin are nuts..but I love seeing my little cousin Ashley..shes 5...and about the funniest little kid ever....she loves to sing and she knows all the words to every popular radio song...her favorite is Somebody Told Me by the Killers and she knows all the words and can sing way better than me lol!!!!
Sunday I went shopping with Mag and Karen and bought 11 pairs of shoes...so me and Karen are now the Hilton sisters of Famous Footwear lol...I got such cute shoes...I love sparkles lol!!!! Sunday night all of us went to Buca di Bepo in Cherryhill and it was really good...we met Laura's friend from school Gil....then we hung out back here!!!!
Today I woke up early and went shopping with Karen for a dress for a wedding she's going to with Kevin...she got the cutest one from Arden B. this new store in Cherryhill...its sooo fabulous and its green...which is our favorite...god if I were rich I would seriousily buy everything I saw lol!!!! We hit up Applebees for lunch!!! I love their Sampler...soo yummy!!!!!!!!!
Well thats about it...everyone is coming over tonight to hang out!!!! Gonna go watch my tape of Grey's Anatomy before then!!!!

Can't Chicken Out Now!

Cutting off my hair and donating it to Locks of Love is a goal I've had for a long time but never made good on because I have chickened out at like my last 12 haircuts and just got it trimmed. I even had a bet with Kelly last summer that we would both cut off our long hair that we grew for like two years and get really cute short haircuts like Mandy Moore for college....Kelly did...I chickened out=(
Not this time....I know how I wanna get it cut...a little shorter than shoulder length...fairly simple like Jennifer Aniston in that one season of friends toward the end...with slight bangs on the sides....and I have like 11 inches I can donate and still have enough hair to do this....so really if I don't now I'm just being selfish. I think I'm going to make my appt. with Matt for not next week but maybe like the Monday after...that way I can have two weeks to say goodbye to my hair...I also need to find someone to go with me to get it done because I don't wanna do this alone=(
In other news...Yesterday I went shopping with Kelly...we hit up a thirft store...it was fun lol....as most ppl know its not really my thing but it was okay...me and Kel bought a bunch of really cheap books....I got 7 for like $4...so that saves me sum money I would have spent at Barnes and Noble....and the books are actually good..hardcover...and by actual ppl lol like Mary Higgins Clark and I got three books from Oprahs Book Club....my reading motto...if Oprah says its good...it is!!!!!!!!! So if anyone is a geek like me and Kelly and likes to read...hit up ur thirft store and save sum money!!!
Last night everyone came over and we watched American Idol...I knew Vonzell was going home...but I wish it were Bo Bice...Vonzell always had such cute clothes and Bo just needs to shave and brush his hair....I'm sorry but I think the American Idol has to be at least kindof attractive...and I don't think that just because Bo is supposed to be a rocker or what not that is an excuse for looking nasty! So now I'm hoping Carrie wins cause Bo Bice needs to go Bo Bye!!!! Well I'm going to go enjoy what is left of my last week of doing nothing and staying in my pajamas till 2pm because next week I start babysitting and I have to be up at like 6:30 am!!!! Peace out homefries!!!! Leave me sum comments ppl!!!!!

Summer is fabulous...need I say more....

I love Summer!!!!! Its sooo pretty and relaxing...there are so many things that make summer rock...the beach...hanging out with friends...eating water ice...driving with the windows down and the sunroof open...I realized today that I love to drive for long drives in the summer and turn the radio all the way up!!!! Today I got to drive down to Deanna's to pick her up because we had to go on a mission for her dress for the wedding...she needed it for this saturday cause shes going with Paul....the new boy in her life...hes nice..we met him saturday...I approve lol...anywayz we got a really pretty pink one at Macys...thats right Deanna is wearing pink ppl and she didn't even bark once in the store..lol!!!!!
I'm excited because I'm writing this blog...which is long overdue according to Steve...sorry to Steveo and the rest of my loyal blog readers...anywayz I'm writing this on my laptop because Jack finally figured out how to work the wireless router thingy!!!! Yippy!!! So that was exciting today!!!!!
My weekend was pretty fun...friday I just chilled at home and watched tv...I was tired after a long day of shopping with big mag...and saturday I went to Janine's to watch Meet the Fockers and play poker...both very fun even though I lost...we also watched old episodes of Guts..that show is soooo funny I wish they still had it for ppl our age...I wanna be on it lol!!!!!
Last night I watched Survivor with my Dad cause thats our show...I was sooo excited that Tom won!!! He desevered it even though I thought Ian was a cutie lol!!!!!
Now I have to go watch my tape of Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy with Karen...I love tv lol!!!! Janine and Steved might come over tonight to hang out...if not we are all gonna party on wednesday hopefully!!!! Thats about it...peace out ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Will Call This The Forever Long Blog!!!!!!!!

Anyone who actually survives and reads this entire blog deserves a pat on the back....its been a really long time since I posted so here is whats new in Jackie's world!!!!!
So far this summer has been pretty awesome...I've only been home officially one week today..but its been a good week!!!! I did a lot of sleeping and eating..and of course seeing my fabulous friends!!!!
Thursday us girls went to KOP....god I love that mall!!! I said I wasn't going to buy much...but of course I walked into Delias and fell in love with these awesome capris and a skirt and t-shirt...so of course I just used my debit card...the debit card is such a great thing...but I should be baned from using it...it has soooo much power lol!!! Then of course we ate at the Cheesecake factory...cause what is a trip to KOP without cheesecake...Jen and Christy had never been there before...we all loved it!!!! Snickers cheesecake is officially my favorite!!!!!
Saturday was sooo fun...everyone went to Reading, Pa to visit the Vales at their new casa!!! I loved riding in the Delia's van...with Mr. Delia going 48mph on 202 it made for the funniest drive ever!!! Me, Steveo and Delia crammed into the back of the van lol...we brought snacks for the ride home just in case we got lost again lol!!!! Other than the crazy ride...the visit was great....Reading is really pretty and hilly lol and it was just like old times hanging out with Robyn..hopefully we will all get to party this summer!!!!
Yesterday was of course Mother's Day...since Mag hates everything we buy here me and Karen made the mistake of getting her nothing...so yesterday morning she was all upset that we didn't get her anything so while she was at church I drag a hungover karen to 4 stores looking for freakin Phantom of the Opera on dvd!!! All sold out eveywhere...stupid movie...who buys that anyway!!!! So we had to slip an I.O.U on Mags card...she wasn't impressed...esp. since Kevin bought her a candle...so we are looking bad...but we did make dinner...tacos...yum!!!!
Last night I had to tape Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy because we went to my cousin Meghann's apartment for Kathy's birthday..it was fun...her apartment is really cute...I want my own place...I miss the dorm!!!! Boy never thought I'd be saying that l0l!!!!!
I know were are only a week into summer...but I've been sucking at the summer goals so far...the only thing I've done is finish a book so I only have 20 more to go lol....I also started taking accutane so now I'm not allowed to spend long amounts of time in the sun so that my kill my goal of being tan...but if it helps clear up my skin...I'm willing to stay pale...I just have to remember to take the pill for the next 20 weeks...thats till like September...I know it will go by fast cause its summer but September feels like its a million miles away!!!!
Okay I know I forgot a bunch of stuff and this blog isn't as long as I planned but oh well...I'll try n keep updating more often so someone....Steve....doesn't yell at me lol!!!!!!!!

Closing Time...You Don't Have To Go Home, But You Can't Stay Here.....

So now I'm really starting to get sad about moving out.....as excited as I am about the start of summer and seeing my home friends...leaving school is gonna suck!!! No offense to my family...but living at home sucks compared to being on ur own...and its sooo nice to live three doors down from ur friends!!!! The idea of packing all my shit up in two days is mucho depressing...I'm trying not to think about it...for now I'm just trying to take as many pictures as I can of my floor!!!
So far this weekend has been awesome...its really nice not having to stress about finals and just hang out on our last weekend all together!!! Last night we watched Ocean's 12....is it just me or that the most confusing movie ever???...I saw the first one and I still couldn't figure it out..lol!!!! I don't give it two thumbs up....=(
While taking online quizzes inbetween packing and studying we figured out that if I was a barbie I'd be sorority slut barbie and if Christy were a carebear she'd be gay bear lol...still laughing about that one...also Christy and I are riddle natzis lol....we have a problem lol!!!!!!!
Sorry to those whom this post makes no sense....oh well...night all!!!!!!!!