Far warning this isn't a very happy post....it just seems like sum things in life never get any better...that whole one step forward two steps back totally describes me right now. I have decided I have way too many things I'm trying to deal with at once and nothing is really working out. My summer goals are getting shot to hell....I'm not gaining like any weight so my mom is up my ass and I can pretty much kiss that puppy goodbye. I was doing kick ass with the exercising but that only lasted like a week...no big suprise there....my new book is like 800 pages and I haven't read it in days and its only my third of the summer...and I haven't scheduled my hair appt. or my teeth whitnening thing cause I'm lame.
It just seems like there is no time for anything between work and dealing with so much medical shit. If I have to worry about taking one more f-ing pill or going to one more doctor appt I'm gonna scream!!! I take 7 pills a day and I'm 18...I can't even imagine how many I'm going to take when I'm an old woman. And because of these stupid ass pills I have to get my blood drawn like every month so I spent my afternoon at the lab which is sooo much fun...I can't even count the number of times I've been stuck with needles between surgeries, illnesses, and just random blood draws...at this point I could do the damn draw myself!!!
The worst part of all of this doctor shit is that just when you think ur making sum progress you get knocked on ur ass.....since I've been going on for a while now I will give the short version of this story....insurance companies are cheap assholes who don't seem to understand the difference between reconstructive and cosmetic....like really whats a couple thousand dollars to sum stupid ass big company...I guess its too much to ask that they have a little compassion. It just sucks to know that one ass who read my claim letter may have changed my fate....I'm gonna appeal their decision...but I'm sure I won't get it overturned...and I won't be able to afford my surgery for a long time.
Well thats about it.....I always said I was never gonna write such personal and depressing shit in my blog but its 1:30am and I have no one to yell at or cry to so too damn bad for anyone who actually reads this!
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Hey Jackie. Its the race. im reading the sisterhood of the traveling pants and i was thinking of you! i just wanted to tell you not to give up and the summer has only just begun. you have plenty of time to reach your goals. summer is about relaxation so stop stressin! heres a quote from the book it made me laugh -sometimes you're the windshield, sometimes you're the bug- =) just relax and enjoy yourself. talk to you later! xoxo
Smile munchkin - I still love you. Maybe you can hit the rich brother-in-law up for some money! ;-)
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