It's gonna be a long ass 40 days....

Today is only the first day of Lent..well really the first two hours of Lent and Jackie is already dying. I decided to give up soda for Lent because I always admire people who give up something that is difficult for them and I decided to be hardcore this year and do this myself. It is already extremely tough...I love soda!!!! The can of cherry coke in the fridge is calling my name!!!!!!!! I'm not even sure why I'm bothering to do this. I'm not really a fan of the Catholic faith anymore since I've stopped going to Church and I disagree with several of the key elements of the faith, but I am still giving up the soda because I see it as more of growth thing than a Lent/ Jesus thing. Like obviously Lent is a Catholic thing, but I really want to prove to myself that I can stick to this no soda pact and that I am a strong in willl when I want to be. So I figure I will make this sacrafice during Lent so I can suffer along with other people. I've also decided to do some positive things this Lent. I have been using the f-word recently and I don't know why? I really think it is a pointless word that makes a person sound dumb and I don't really know how, but I recently became addicted to using it. The point is I want it out of my vocabulary so I am going to try to not say it at all for the next 40 days. Even in those situations when you are extremely pissed and the situation really warrants a nice f-bomb lol. Lastly for Lent I am going to try to be less negative. I sometimes tend to focus on the negative side of things or I wil catch myself making a negative comment when I don't need to. So I've also decided that I'm going to try to be more positive and happy. I'm hoping the next 40 days will make me a better person, that is if I survive.