Pause

It's weird being home for spring break. It makes me feel like I don't really go to school, like my other life at Stockton is on pause until Sunday. I guess this a good thing because that life was really starting to stress me out! This semester has just been really ugly for me. I've had so much work between classes and the wedding that I feel like I'm constantly on over-drive. I'm counting down the days till school and over and the wedding is finally here. It's kind of sad because I know the wedding is going to be really nice, but this have been so stressful that a small part of me wishes it was just over already...not that I'm about to say that to Karen. As each little piece falls into place I'm starting to feel better about the whole thing though. We are finishing making the invitations on Wednesday and I went for a dress fitting today and my top is coming along nicely. I also got my shoes today and they are very cute!!! I can't believe how soon May is...I hope everything continues to fall into place.
After the break there is only 31 days of school left this year. I can't believe I am 31 days away from being a senior. The idea of it scares me a lot. I feel like I haven't accomplished enough on a personal or professional level to be graduating in a year....I'm hoping that it's just nerves and that I am not really behind. I was looking into grad schools tonight online. I really would love to go to Penn, but that would be like almost $70K and I'd have to go straight for two years. Rutgers, Widener, and West Chester are more reasonable for MSW's they would be around $30-40K and I could take my time and go course by course for most of them, since I'm going to have to work at least part-time during school. Basically I'm going to be poor for at least the next ten years, maybe more, and I need to find someone who wants to support me. And I need to start doing more volunteer work because schools really want that and I haven't done hardly any in the past few years.
The weather this week has been amazing. It makes me want to go the beach!!! It even inspired me to buy a bathing suit the other day. It's a cute brown with white little dots two-piece. And I actually don't hate it on me...shocker!!! Hopefully I will get to spend some time outside this week and enjoy the weather. I have a paper to write all day tomorrow about Africa, but going to Cheesecake for dinner is my reward =) Wednesday I have to do the envelopes for the invites and run a few errands so I will have to squeeze in some sun time! Thursday is sewing day since I haven't even opened my sewing machine from Christmas and Mag is getting pissed hehe, so I'm going to sew her a pillow or something simple lol. Then it's a weekend full of wedding business and hanging out. And before I know it my week of freedom will be over and it will be back to Stockton for another 31 days...just where I want to be =(