The End is Near

The end of this school year is very bittersweet for me. While I am of course excited for summer and being done with classes, it is hard to think about having to leave in a week. This time next week I will be home a whole day already. Where did the last three years go? I can't believe I'm going to be a senior in a week. Even more than that I can't believe I am leaving this apartment in a week. Living with three other girls isn't always easy, but for the most part it has been amazing and I don't want to ever leave. We always knew the two years would go by fast and they did. It's going to be very emotional packing up all the stuff and leaving next Tuesday because not only are we no longer living in this apartment, but we are no longer all living together. I can't believe the Bially is graduating...it's so happy, yet sad. It makes me want to turn back time to freshman year in the crappy dorm. Back then we hated the small rooms and crappy caf food, but looking back all I can remember is the craziness and the fun.
I'm really starting to feel like a grown up recently. I have been making a lot of changes recently and taking steps toward the future. It's funny how when you know you only have a year of safety left you realize that you really need to change all aspects of your life and become a grown up. I just finished filling out my senior internship application. I hope the board likes my essays and gives me a good placement. That could make or break my first few years post Stockton. I've been thinking recently that maybe I will go away for grad school. I figure I may never have another oppurtunity to just pack up and leave and there isn't really anything holding me here anymore. It will of course be hard to leave my friends and family, but I would be sure to keep in touch and I wouldn't stay away forever...maybe just two years or so.
Well that's about it for now. I'm so stressing about this weekend...loads of studying to do and a stupid africa paper to write! Once Tuesday evening hits life is less complicated...sad, but less complicated.