Walk Me Through This World, Don't Leave Me Alone

I can't believe I will be back at school this time next week and already done my first day of class for my last semester as an undergrad. I seriously don't know where the four years went and how I got to this point. It's all kind of a blur but I'm happy to be almost done because I think it's time to move on. I would be slightly happier if I knew where I was going to be come June but I guess I'll have to wait and see. I've decided that I am going to apply to grad school because I really want to just get my masters over with so I can have it and then get a great job in like two years. I will still need to find a job come May, but I will have to find a place that is really willing to work with me and give me flexible hours. So this next semester will consist of job hunting and grad school applications.
This winter break has been interesting to say the least. A lot has changed these past few months and I guess it is all for the better, but at the moment it doesn't feel that way. Nobody likes change and it is so hard to let go of things that are so important to you. I know that change is necessary, but finally deciding to make a change in life is never an easy thing to do. I feel like over this break I basically came to the realization that I am officially becoming a grown up and that I can no longer stay tied to the past. I'm trying to focus on the future right now and making sure I wind up where I want to be in the next year or two. I've realized that the most important thing when a change comes is to lean on those around you. My friends have been so great recently and I've realized that keeping relationships alive is really what's most important. So I'd just like to say thank you to all my friends and that even if we don't get to talk or hang out as often as we'd like you are all very important to me and I'd be lost without you.

This is our town, this is where we're meant to be..

I can't believe another year has come and gone. 2008 just sounds so weird. I remember sitting in my basement with my friends watching the summer olympics in 2004 and thinking holy crap in 2008 when the next summer olympics happens we will be college graduates! Where did those four years go??? They have been so fun and I can't believe that come May it's all over. I never want to leave Stockton or my apartment!!! We had everyone over last night at the apartment to celebrate New Years Eve! It was a really great night. Not everyone that I love could make it but I had most of the important people there so it was great. I love being with my friends and just hanging out and having some drinks. We always spend the entire night laughing at each other and all of the weird things we do and say. I love laughing till my eyes tear....it sucks cause your makeup runs but who cares hehe.
I can't believe how fast this break is going. Christmas and all its magic are over. It was nice as usual but this year feels like it went by especially fast! On the Eve we went to dinner and then to mass at 10pm....Christmas Eve mass is my favorite thing becuase I love the music and how everyone is so friendly and excited for the next day. We had Christmas at our house which makes this slightly more chaotic but I prefer having it here cause Mag in my opinion makes a rocking holiday dinner and I love all of the decorations we have in the house. Our house is typically described as the place where Christmas threw up and that's just the way I like it. I got pretty good loot from Santa...clothes, fabulous boots, cash, small coach bag, my light blue perfume. The perfume was one of my favs because I haven't worn that scent in like two years and I missed it so!
We watched Superbad last night after the ball dropped...I forgot how freakin funny that movie was...love it!!! It was the last movie I've seen in a theater so hopefully I will see something over the break! I would like to see Juno but I really hate spending so much money to see movies which is why I don't go that often. Over the break I also want to go to Dave and Busters, pf changs, atlantic city again, the continental, tomo, read a few more books, organize grade school applications and learn to use my sewing machine...we'll see how much of that list gets done!