It's gonna be a long ass 40 days....

Today is only the first day of Lent..well really the first two hours of Lent and Jackie is already dying. I decided to give up soda for Lent because I always admire people who give up something that is difficult for them and I decided to be hardcore this year and do this myself. It is already extremely tough...I love soda!!!! The can of cherry coke in the fridge is calling my name!!!!!!!! I'm not even sure why I'm bothering to do this. I'm not really a fan of the Catholic faith anymore since I've stopped going to Church and I disagree with several of the key elements of the faith, but I am still giving up the soda because I see it as more of growth thing than a Lent/ Jesus thing. Like obviously Lent is a Catholic thing, but I really want to prove to myself that I can stick to this no soda pact and that I am a strong in willl when I want to be. So I figure I will make this sacrafice during Lent so I can suffer along with other people. I've also decided to do some positive things this Lent. I have been using the f-word recently and I don't know why? I really think it is a pointless word that makes a person sound dumb and I don't really know how, but I recently became addicted to using it. The point is I want it out of my vocabulary so I am going to try to not say it at all for the next 40 days. Even in those situations when you are extremely pissed and the situation really warrants a nice f-bomb lol. Lastly for Lent I am going to try to be less negative. I sometimes tend to focus on the negative side of things or I wil catch myself making a negative comment when I don't need to. So I've also decided that I'm going to try to be more positive and happy. I'm hoping the next 40 days will make me a better person, that is if I survive.

Tell Me Is This Fate

It's 88 days until the wedding and I'm stressing hardcore!!! Planning this wedding is making me realize I am either never marrying or I'm just going to elope because I would never want to stress people out as much as this wedding is stressing me out!!! Every little thing seems to be turning into a disaster!!! Well only the parts that are my problem really. Mag picked up my dress yesterday, I tried it on and the skirt is tight!!! I can get it to zipper and close, but it bunches and looks awkward because it comes up sooo freakin high!!! Yeah my top will cover this issue, but after a few drinks and some dinner, I'm afraid I'm gonna pop!!!! Then today I tried on the trial top I had made and of course it looks like crap! I feel awful because Donna spent so much time on it, but it really looks horrible on me so I'm going to have to go to another person and get a different pattern made. To make things worse when I called Karen and told her about how tiny my skirt was she tells me that Melanine got a size four skirt too and hers fits her just fine, she doesn't need any alterations at all. Like that makes me feel any better! I'm competeing with a girl who is 5'10 and could be a freakin model to see who is gonna look better in the dress!!!! Anyways I hate life and I'm going to look like a big fat piece of crap at the wedding...that is if I can even fit into whatever the hell my dress winds up looking like!
Of course the wedding isn't my only issue right now, school is also the devil!!! My classes are just so random and boring this semester that I am putting in zero effort and that is going to bite me on the ass very, very soon! I've spent the first part of this semester text messaging people and doodling my way through every single class and now test time is starting to roll around...ut-o!!!! I had my first music test last week, a lot uglier than I expected, but I did take notes in-between the text messaging so I'm hoping I survived with at least a B. My first paper is due for my Africa class this Wednesday and of course I haven't even started it!!! I watched the five hours worth of videos and starting reading the endless chapters of the book, now I have to get crackin on writing the five page summary. I know I will get it done on time, but I just can't motivate myself to start. I feel like I can't get five minutes to relax until May, every second that I'm not physically doing something I'm stressing about not doing something or thinking about/ planning what I have to do next. Once May 2nd hits school is over and on May 12th the wedding will be over and life will be carefree....I hope.

Running Out of Time!!!!

AHHHH!!!!! There is less than one week of break left and I haven't accomplished half of my goals. I just bought my books for next semester the other night, which is always fun. I just love when one professor requires 5 different books for a stupid cognate course that isn't even in my major. Stupid liberal arts requirements lol!!! Anywayz this break is going by way too fast and between working small amounts and planning the shower and hanging out with my friends I feel like I haven't had more than five minutes to just sit and chill. I did manage to read 3 books over the break, but I started my 4th book this week, The Thornbirds, which I have no hope of finishing by next week. It's like 700 pages and I have like zero free time between now and Monday when I move back to Stockton. The wedding is like 120 days away and its sucking up all my time already!!! Today we accomplished a lot though. Karen got bridal shoes and we looked at China patterns. China is an odd thing...you never really use it, you're always afraid you're gonna break it, and there are like 3 million different kinds and they all look exactly the same...yet picking the right China pattern is a huge deal! I just don't get it lol! It's funny how the little shit turns into a big deal sometimes. Now I'm being a mo and trying to make a huge list of all the stuff I need to handle before heading back to school while I paint my nails and lounge in my footie pajamas!!!! That's right they make footie pj's for adults and santa/ mag got me a pair and they are heaven!!!! It's like being a kid again =)

Where did the time go???

Holy crap its 2007!!!!! Where did 2006 go??? While laying in bed today taking my post-party nap I was thinking about the past year. People always say you should survey the previous year and see where you went wrong and what you can do differently the following year. The only problem is I had a hard time remembering what the hell I did all year, and then I realized that in itself is not a good thing. I know in reality I did a variety of things....work, school, hung out with friends etc. But I guess I'm a little saddened by the fact that I didn't do anything extra special that really stands out in my mind. To make this long story shorter, I have decided that I have two resolutions this year. My first resolution is the same one I make for myself every year and I think in recent years I am actually getting better at keeping. And that is to stop sweating the little things in life. Getting all worked up about stuff I can't change is just too much stress and I don't need it! Also to expand this resolution for 2007, I'm going to try and always do what I truly want to do and not be fake. I'm so tired of people being phony or feeling like you need to be a certain way to fit in and I think that is ridiculous. I've decided for 2007 I want to be more like one of those people who does exactly what they want to do and doesn't give a damn what other people think. After giving this part some thought though I realized this could turn me into someone cynical and uncaring so I will only do this in moderation.
My second resolution and the reason I wrote this now very long winded blog in the first place is because I want to do several memorable and important things this year. So I've decided every month throughout 2007 I am going to do something I have never done before or something important that will benefit other people and/or society. I haven't yet figured out what these 12 or so things are going to be, but it's only 1am on January 2nd so I have 364 days to figure them out!!!

I love Christmas!!!

Christmas has come and gone and it was different than any other year, but fabulous in its own way. Karen had work again so we opened our presents on Christmas Eve. I made out well as usual..lots of clothes, barnes and noble giftcard, ihome, a snowbaby, the price is rite dvd game, and the usuals socks, candy and a toothbrush. And since my folks love to surprise me with something extra I woke up Christmas morning to find one extra present under the tree..a big one!!! A sewing machine!!!! I had asked for one, but really wasn't expecting to get one so I was very shocked and happy when I did. I'm a little scared though cause it looks very complicated. I hope I can read the directions and figure out how to actually use it! And in typical Mag and Jack fashion...a nice crisp benji franklin was waiting by my eggs and bacon on the kitchen table =)
I just love Christmas! I honestly don't even care about the presents that much its just such a laid back and fun day. I love the little things about Christmas, like having a nice family breakfast, seeing all the crazy relatives, laughing about the lame joke gifts the aunts buy each other, and of course this year watching the eagles!!!! Thank god they won otherwise my drunken family would have caused a riot probably!!!

There's Magic in the Air This Evening, Magic in the Air....

This is going to be a very happy blog because the universe is being so gooooood to Jackie right now. I think it all began about a week ago and since then practically everything has been awesome!!! The semester is over and it wasn't that awful in the end. Right now I have three A's and I'm waiting for my health and wellness grade. I'm praying for an A, but I'm thinking I'm gonna have to live with an A- or a B+ cause I was so pooped from my other classes that I slacked on the final. Oh well!!! I really just want to know my grade, but of course my professor is taking her sweet time posting them. Then again, if the grade is bad I don't wanna know cause they could just kill my spree of fabulous!!! I'm just glad the holidays are here and that the rest of my friends will be home shortly....I miss everyone!!!!
I'm really starting to think my spree of fabulous and good mood has something to do with the holiday season. It's amazing how into the holidays we all still become even when we are grown up. How you still watch the same cheesy movies and listen to the same songs you loved as a kid. Each year when the holiday season is approaching I always think about how much of a hassle shopping is and how little money I have to buy presents, but its the week before Christmas and none of that seems to matter anymore. Anyways I'm starting to ramble now, but I am just really full of holiday cheer and I'm kind of surprised by how much holiday spirit I have this year. I think maybe all the holiday movies put me into the spirit. I have watched all of my favorites this year- Elf, Muppet Christmas Carol, Polar Express, Christmas Vacation, It's a Wonderful Life, Miracle on 34th Street, and The Santa Clause....they are all soooo fabulous. If anyone hasn't seen one or more of these, get to it cause you're missing out!!!!
I'm almost done my christmas shopping which is another reason I am happy. I hope everyone likes what I got them!!! I have to pick a day this week and wrap like crazy. I'm also supposed to help Mag wrap for fun lol. Tomorrow is cookie day with Karen. We may have gone a little overboard this year. We promised a lot of people cookies and now tomorrow is gonna be hardcore. We are planning on making like nine dozen cookies...we will probably die halfway through, but it should make for a few laughs since Jack and Bailey will be getting in the way I'm sure!

Sigh of Relief

The semester is really almost over now. Today was absolute hell...two finals back to back..econ and crim!!! I seriously have wanted to die the past few days...I have been so stressed!!!! I have been staying up until 4am or later typing endless study guides and reading chapters and now it is all done!!!! It's both scary and rewarding walking out of a final exam. On the one hand you are so freakin glad that it is over and life can get back to normal, but it's also kind of scary to think that you can't do anything to change things now. Once the final is over that's it! I'm pretty sure I did well on these two today so that makes me super happy!!! Two more to go until freedom!!!! Next Thursday can't come soon enough!!!!
I got a parking ticket again today even though I was told I had special permission to park on campus cause of my disability so someone at Stockton is gonna be hearing from me in the morning!!!! It was quite a kick in the ass to be so happy that my finals were done only to walk out to my car and see that damn ticket!!!!! Since when is parking in a normal parking space a crime???? Damn rent-a-cops!!!!
I can't believe Christmas is sooo soon and I seriously have not bought any gifts!!!! I have two things purchased so far and I don't even know who I am giving the one thing to. I really need to kick things into gear when I get home next week...oh home how I love it!!!!! I can't wait to see everyone, eat real food, and sleep in my bed on the floor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss my double bed=)

Hard to Describe

I can't believe its almost December!!!! Thanksgiving has come and gone and I don't feel like it really happened at all. The food was pretty good. I was slightly dissapointed because the stuffing wasn't as good as I'd hoped. I put a little too much onion and according to Jack not enough celery. I wrote down some notes for adjustments to next year's receipe.
It's officially crunch time. Three weeks to go and the semester is over. I feel completely un-prepared. I have two finals next week and we are no where near done covering all the topics on them. They are of course my two ugliest finals...so this weekend is not going to be fun for me. The next three weeks are going to go by so fast and be so insane I don't know how I am going to ever squeeze in time to do Christmas shopping!!! I hate being so stressed out before the holidays. It really crushes the holiday spirit. I can't complain since we get done on the 14th, but by the time I get home for Christmas the house is already decorated and the tree has already been bought and it's kinda sad. I can't wait to be done with school and not have the upcoming Christmas season symbolize finals. Since I've been looking into grad schools recently and would like to get my PhD this might not be for like another 7 years...wow that sounds so long and painful!!!
My health and wellness class is the strangest class I've ever taken. Its my first online class ever and it is so odd. Every week we have to do two online quizzes which are impossible and I suck at...they are the trickiest multiple choice questions ever!!! I keep trying to get them all right but I always wind up with a 90 or 95...not that I'm complaing lol. Anyways along with the quizzes are these discussion boards we have to participate in, two a week. The questions aren't hard they just always require a lot of thought and sometimes I just don't know what to put and I hate that other people can read my answers. This week we covered death and dying and I just finished the discussion posts. The one question was do you believe in an afterlife and if so describe it. I of course believe in heaven, but asking someone to describe heaven and make other people understand their view is really difficult and made me think a lot. After a lot of thought I put that I feel heaven is like a big party where everyone drinks some beers and sits around a kitchen table with their family and friends and just hangs out. I'm thinking my view of heaven is very Irish. I basically view heaven to be a typical family gathering where everyone eats, drinks and catches up with each other. It's loud and very entertaining and no one leaves the table even though the kitchen chairs hurt your ass after a while cause your having too much fun to care. This probably sounds very lame, but it sounds good to me lol. I'm very curious to see what other people post throughout the week. I wonder if anyone will comment back and like my view of heaven.

This is Elf, what's your favorite color???

I watched Elf tonight in between the football games..that movie is damn funny!!! I had never seen it before and I was in a laughing kind of mood and I just thought it was sooo hysterical!! I love being in the type of mood where you find everything to be sooo much funnier than it really is. When Karen and I hang out I feel like that always happens. We like to laugh at stupid shows and drive Mag crazy with our stupid comments...I love days like those. Anywayz watching Elf really kicked me into the holiday spirit. I was already excited about Thanksgiving after my trip to the supermarket on Friday. I decided Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday cause the food is amazing...Mag makes a mean bird!!!! And Thanksgiving is better than Christmas even without the presents because their is all the excitment of the upcoming Christmas holiday!!! Like once Christmas morning is over the rest of the day is just kind of blah with a so-so dinner that doesn't always include turkey..lame ass ham lol...but Thanksgiving is fabulous all day and then there is always black friday which to Jackie has nothing to do with shopping and might as well be changed to round two friday!!!! I heart leftovers!!!! This year we are having like 11 people and 4 pies!!! That is way too large a pie to person ratio which means Jackie will eating pie for days...I love it!!!!!

Everything You Own in a Box to the Left

I dyed my hair tonight!!!! Well I should say my fabulous roommate/ hair stylist Mr.Christy dyed my hair. I was growing tired of the whole blonde highlights thing so I decided it was time to go back to dark. And since I am po and not able to afford to go to the salon Mr. Christy was the way to go!!! It's still in the towel right now cause I'm too lazy to blowdry it so I will see in a little while how it looks...its so hard to tell cause when you get out of the shower it of course looks black cause its wet..lets hope it lightens as it dries or else I may have black hair again for a little while lol!!!
In other news I'm going home this weekend for Karen's birthday dinner tomorrow night and to work on Friday and hang with Kelly and to visit Stev on Saturday!!!! All three shall be fabulous!!!! Hopefully Karen likes her gift, I bought it today at Pier One..its a vase she said she liked. Since she basically picked it out I'm thinking the odds are in my favor she will like it. I'm don't know where we are going to dinner, but I love food so hopefully somewhere good. I'm liking food too much recently...I think I put on a couple lbs. Which I know isn't a bad thing since everyone tells me I'm too thin, but I'm worried that if I don't start to exercise a little it's all going to settle in my stomach and that would suck!!!
I don't know why but I have the urge to go see a movie. I haven't been to a movie in a theater since like the summer and I have really wanted to go all week. I just keep renting movies, but its not the same. I really wanted to see Saw 3 cause the first two were so good but I never got the chance..guess I'll just rent it later lol. Maybe I'll go see that movie Borat..everyone on campus keeps saying how funny it is so I might have to check it out.
I can't wait till winter break so I can read some good books!!! I just ordered five books off Amazon and I'm so excited to read them..yes I'm excited about reading I am a nerd hehe!!! I ordered the Glass Castle because my professor recommended it. And I am still on my quest to read some good classic type books so I got In Cold Blood, The Thornbirds, Flowers in the Attic, and East of Eden..all recommended by random folks. Hopefully they are as good as people say.

INSANITY!!!!

WOW!!! I haven't updated this blog in eons!!!! Thats because I have like zero spare time. The only time I'm not running around like crazy is between the hours of 12am-3am which is when I'm usually catching up on homework or thinking about the 20 million things I still need to get done for the week. School has been going great, but it keeps me uber busy. I rocked all my midterms that was exciting. Its always good to get those done cause it makes ya confident for the finals..hopefully!!! On top of school I'm still trying to help plan the wedding which is gettting sooo close..its like 190 days or something according to the knot.com countdown!!! Everytime I log onto that site to search for some info I need I dread reading that little counter in the corner. It might as well be a giant flashing sign screaming how little time I have left to get things under control. I still have to plan and throw a bridal shower, get my dress fitted and altered, find a date, buy a gift, make favors, write a toast, and like three million other little details that I don't yet know about!!!! Weddings are soo much work and sooo much money and it isn't even my wedding...being Maid of Honor is hardcore!!!
In other news, Halloween was yesterday!!! I was a leaf blower..it was fabulous!!!! I found the idea online and since I have a limited budget it was the perfect $3 idea lol!!!! The pictures came out pretty funny and everyone got a good laugh once I explained to them what I was.
Tonight the roommates and I watched the Break-Up...I didn't like it. It wasn't that funny like everyone said it was and it didn't end well. I'm sorry but I like to see a happy/resolved ending and when it doesn't happen that pisses me off. Yeah I get it real life is complicated and messy and unable to be resolved in an hour and a half, but Hollywood isn't real life. When I rent a movie I'm not looking for realistic...if I want to be complicate and messy I'd watch real people's lives. That is my beef for this evening.

P.S.

The Eagles kicked ass today and it was fabulous!!!! Lito is beast!!!!

My name is Jackie and I am a chocolate addict....

Okay so basically I've been eating complete junk food since coming back to school a month ago and I feel yucky. I don't know if its a combonation of eating junk food, like endless twix bars and doritos, and stress or what but my skin is starting to look bad. And I'm getting fat!!! Since I just looked on the knot the other day and realized its only 213 days till Karen's wedding this is not kosher. Being in a wedding is really stressful..and this isn't even my wedding!!! Being maid of honor means you have to help plan everything and throw a freakin bridal shower and other shit I don't know how to do. Thank God Karen's friends are cool and gonna help me out a lot!!! I am stressin about the skin issue though cause I wanna look good in the pictures and stuff. I don't really like being in the spot light so I'm glad all eyes will be on Karen, but there are still those few moments when people will focus on me, like when I walk down the aisle where I will probably fall and when I give my toast that no one will find touching or funny lol, and I'd like to look as nice as possible at these awkward moments lol. Anyways I went to the derm and she put me on a few different things so hopefully that helps. Other than that she told me to watch my diet and try to minimize stress...since the second is almost impossible to do while at school I decided to try the diet thing. As of thursday I officially gave up chocolate..and it has not been easy!!!! Everything in this apartment has chocolate in it..we have cookies, ice cream, reeses, twix, mr good bars, churches, baby ruths, butterfingers, and chocolate covered pretzels...I want to die!!!! Its so hard to not eat it when its sitting right in front of you..literally as I type this the candy bowl is staring at me =(
Anywayz thats the reason I wrote this blog..its my ode to no chocolate..4 days sober and truckin along...

EAGLES!!!!!!!!!

Last night was absolutely amazing!!!!! I got to do something I've been dreaming of doing since I was 8 years old watching football on Sunday on the couch with my dad!!!! I went to the EAGLES game!!!! People always say how much cooler football is live and how amazing the atmosphere is when your in that stadium full of people..and they are sooo right!!!! Janine and I had sooo much fun at the game..the fans were fierce and since it was a monday night game everyone was extra pumped!!!! Of course the game was even more amazing since we won lol!!!! Also cause our seats were great..26 rows back on the 30. I felt like I could reach out and touch McNabb lol...and I got some bangin pictures on my camera phone!!!! I still can't believe we actually went...the whole way there we both couldn't believe we were going. My entire family thought I was kidding when I told them. I know I'm not athletic at all..mostly because I am uber lazy, but also because I am a tiny little woman. But I do watch a hell of a lot of tv and I've been watching the eagles since I can remember. And I think I know a lot about football for a 20 year old girl...I know all about the game itself and I can name almost all of the eagles starters and a few select players from most of the NFL teams. I think thats fairly impressive lol!!! So boo to anyone who thinks I don't know football or shouldn't have gotten to go see the game..boo!!!!
Anywayz the game was amazing and definitely like top five on the list of coolest shit I've ever done!!!! I've now seen an eagles game, a flyers game, and like millions of phillies game..the eagles game by far was the coolest..although the flyers game was quite pimp too!!! One day when I am rich I will have season tickets to all the teams and be one of those cool people who knows the people who sit around them since they all have season tickets!!!! And of course when I have my season tickets I will have to tailgate so I'm gonna buy a camper and be one of those cool people who spends the whole game day in a parking lot in philly cause that is pimp!!!! And since nice people have shared their season tickets with me for free..I will do the same when I am the rich one...so stay friends with me and you may luck out in like 15 years hehe!!!!

Life's Funny Like That

Yeah so I haven't updated this piece in forever!!!! Mostly because college is lame and I don't have any time!!! Also because I feel like everything is a blurr recently. I feel like I never stop moving all day long and then at the end of the day I try to reflect on what I did and I don't really recall. I'm not losing my mind I know what I did..but I just feel like I was there but not there...I dunno its a strange feeling that I hope is only temporary. Anyways not too much is new..classes are lame-o. Econ is so boring and confusing all at the same time its amazing!!! Stat is satan in a hat!!! Crim is the most boring class ever...don't kid yourselves into thinking a class about crime is fun or cool..its not its lame and makes Jackie want to fall asleep!!! I have a Stat quiz tomorrow so I am kind of stressin. I did really well on the first one but that shit was easier..its funny though..as bad as I think I am with math and statistics there are some people in my class that make me feel like I could be teaching the class...like do they just let anyone with cash into college anymore??? The only class I'm kosher with right now is my online class cause I don't have to deal with annoying people asking stupid questions or boring lectures. Its just two quizzes and essay posts each week. Which are so lame its sad.
I'm going home this weekend for work. I don't want to go at all..my job is lame and I am tired of not having downtime on the weekends. I feel like working every other weekend..which I realize is like nothing to most people..is sucking away my fun. But I guess its a good reason to go home and get my laundry done and get food =) Last weekend Janine took us to Red Lobster it was pimp..I had never been. It was yummy!!! Saturday people came down..it was fun!!! I got to go to the beach at night..it was soo warm..the ocean was delightful. I heart the beach =)

I'm so glad its fall!!! I love wearing sweaters and flip flops at the same time!!! I love crunching leaves with my feet and not sweating all the time!!! Plus tv is amazing. All I have to say is Greys is the best show on tv right now. Some of my other favs are Runway, The Tree, and ER. Desperate is looking good again so I'm giving it a second chance. Brothers and Sisters is new and was really good so I might keep up with that if I have time. Gonna watch Ugly Betty cause it looks funny. I watched a little Dancing with the Stars even though its lame...but hey Slater is on it and that is just too funny!!

Different But The Same

So the first week of classes is over..for me anyways..no fridays!!!! And it was pretty much the same shit in a different year lol. We moved in and pimped out the apartment..changed the furniture around a bit so its even cooler than last year!!!! Everyone had better come visit and party with us or I will beat you!!! Tuesday classes started..they aren't too bad so far. Statistics is probably my scary class this semester but I have my crazy professor from last year again so thats always entertaining!!! He is just as weird as always..good to know some things never change!!! Econ is just time consuming and lame and my night class and online class are just boring but simple. This week seemed like it took forever but it was only three days long for me!!! I am glad it is over and things are back to normal..its like we never left.

Children get older, I'm getting older too

Okay so I turned 20 last week and it hasn't been too bad so far. At least 21 is getting much closer!!! It's been a really looong week..between working at AH and babysitting I was not home at all!!!! I had to wake up uber early, but I did make some good money my last week at home so at least that will be helpful!!! This week seemed like it lasted forever...my birthday seems like it was ages ago!!! It was fabulous btw..dinner at PF Changs was amazing and my cake came out sooo good..two layers of chocolate with white frosting and bananas and strawberries!!!! And I got some cool presents!!! Benchwarmers on dvd and Greys season one!!!! Mini gummi bears!!! A bangin pillow!!!! Pimp flowers!!!! I love having flowers delievered its such a nice suprise!!! And the sister got me some pimp makeup..smashbox is quite fabulous!!! The Mag bought me clothes and junk..always good!!! I love my birthday cause I love presents!!! Right now I'm looking through the JCPenny Christmas book..something lame that I have done since birth. I never noticed it before but the catalouge actually has a totally unique smell. I know that sounds nuts but it really does. I dunno how I just figured this out or why I sniffed it, but I did and it does!!! I'm dog earring all the pages of the stuff I like as a hint to the Mag for what to buy me!!!
Anyways the past few days have been sad cause everyone left me. It sucks being the last to go..I'm all alone!!! Today was my first day of solitude so I went shopping for school stuff..nothing like the last minute!! Mag and I shop well under pressure..we dropped like $400 in two hours!!! The new Walmart is weird but cheap so we hit there firsts and got the basics like food, paper products and cleaning junk. Then Target for stuff we couldn't get at Walmart and Famous Footwear cause we had coupons. I got cute sneakers and the best boots ever!!! They are amazing..I am in love!!!
Tonight was kind of fun. I hung out with the family and Mag made a turkey dinner for my last dinner home!!! It was nice..Karen came over to eat with us!!! Dinner was delightful...I love turkey...its my fav!!!! I guess I will miss my family a little while I'm at school..I will definitely miss the dinners!!! My family is pretty entertaining. Tonight we had some good laughs watching Bailey hump Charlie. We are dog sitting for the neighbors and apparently Bailey is gay!!! He is a big fan of Charlie and its really hard to keep them apart lol!!! Its also very entertaining to watch my family try!! I don't really care if Bailey is a mo he's still fabulous to me!!!!
Only one more day till I move back to Stockton. I'm ready to go now. I didn't think I was the other day but now that everyone else is gone its not the same anymore..there's nothing keeping me here so I'm ready to roll.

Tomorrow!!!!!

That's right..tomorrow is my day of birth!!! I have slightly adjusted to the idea of being 20..I mean all my friends are 20 now including Lau and they are surviving so how bad can it be??? It's not like life is ever all roses so I'm thinking age isn't gonna change things. It kind of sucks I've been a little off lately and I'm not sure why. I think its just end of summer blues added on to some family issues and life in general. It just sucks though cause its my birthday and I'm trying to be really happy and carefree and thats just been tough recently. I just keep trying to focus on really happy fun things that are coming up soon so I can try and forget about the not so great stuff going on right now.
And since tomorrow is my birthday that is a good distraction!!!! I'm so excited to go to dinner at Pf Changs with my friends and family!!! I am going to dinner with 8 of the people I love most so I guess I can't complain..but I do wish that everyone I love could be there!!! And after dinner everyone gets to eat the fabulous birthday cake that I am making!!!! Thats my job for tomorrow!!!! And I'm putting fruit in the center..bananas and strawberries..it shall be delighftul!!!!
Well that's about it..I'm gonna go soak up my last 18 or so hours of being 19!!!!!

7 DAYS!!!!!

Omg I just did the math and I have only slept like 5 hours in the past 36 hours and I love it!!!! I am so hyper right now its amazing...I've decided to type anything that come to mind in the blog so its not gonna make a whole lot of sense. I am chilling in my bed right now eating leftover kfc mashed potatoes that I of course bought on the drive home this morning..cause what is better to top off a night of drinking then a hungover ride home and a stop at the local kfc!!!!! I swear to god I have the soul of a fat kid trapped in the body of a skinny woman with a rockin metabolism thanx to jack's side of the family. The sad thing is I look at my aunts and I can see that one day time will catch up with me and I'm gonna be fat!!!! But I've decided I will embrace it because I will at least be eating fabulous food!!!! I love KFC...the smell of it is amazing..I am almost out of mashed and very sad about this!!! I love when my car smells like kfc hours after I've had it in there!!! If I could bottle the scent I probably would. Enough about the mashed lol.....
Last night was the best friends birthday and it was freakin amazing!!!! Kelly was hysterical she was so drunk and crazy and I loved it!!! And the 98 cent tiara blinked the entire night which is amazing..I love how the littlest things can brighten my day...like a good deal on a party accessory..way better than the lame ass sash Kelly wanted hehe!!!! Anywayz the night was amahzing and so many random things happened..some good, some bad, some very weird but there is way too much to type out so I will just bore people with the tales in person!!!! But I swear the best part of any night of drinking is the random shit that happens when everyone is crammed into one room trying to go to sleep and being cranky and stupid...last night there was like 6 of us crammed into one room with Kelly's cat and it was nuts!!!! Mostly because people were allergic to the damn cat so we had to chase it out hehe..poor dixie!!! Anywho last night was fabulous and I got to meet cool new people which is always fun!!!!
In conclusion..its 7 days till my birthday which is exciting and sad...cause its really the last thing that happens before school starts again....but it will be fabulous so I guess its kosher!!!!

16 DAYS!!!

IT'S ONLY 16 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! I haven't decided exactly what I am doing to celebrate the momentous event that is my day of birth but some things are in the works!!! They include Laura and I getting tattoos because we are exactly 48 hours apart to the mintue!!! 10:26 am!!!! And taking everyone to dinner at PF Changs on the night of my birth!!! I am also trying to decide what kind of cake I want to get...at first I was thinking the same amazing chocolate cake I got last year from Terminis and then I thought about a nice cheesecake from Cheescake Factory now that there is one in Cherry Hill...I am open to suggestions. I have decided I have to do something extra special this year because I am bummed about just turning 20 when everyone else is turning 21 soon!!! If it wasn't for Laura being almost as young as me I would cry..its gonna suck next summer when everyone can go to bars and we can't=( But once we turn 21 life will be fabulous cause then everyone will be 21 together!!! Being 20 is just lame its like a waste of a year so Lau and I decided we aren't turning 20 we are simply going to be 19 part two!!! Being 20 sounds really old and like we have to start being grown ups and we don't want to so we are waiting to be grown up until we officially hit 21 and can legally use alcohol to soften the blow!!! So basically we are turning 19 again so we will be 19,19 21!!!! We think it is a pretty good plan lol!!!!
Enough about that...I am being rather lazy today cause I am tired and slightly annoyed with life!!! Its so hard to make plans around everyone's schedules and Lau and I have been bustin our asses to do so!!! So much is happeneing in the next three weeks and I am excited cause I will be uber busy and having fun but it also sucks cause at the end of the three weeks we all have to seperate!!!! The fact that it is really only three weeks blows cause it makes the end feel soo near and it also makes it seem like we did nothing all summer cause it went so fast..thats really not the case though!!! I think this summer was delightful and we did accomplish some of the goals on our to do lists...we are still gonna try to squeeze in a few dinners so we can hit Cheesecake and a night out in Philly and if we get to do our shore weekend it will almost be like we did a mini roadtrip since we are all trying to save funds=(
Anywayz that is about it for now...Jack is out front washing my car and I'm probably gonna get yelled at cause I didn't do it myself!!! I said I was doing it tomorrow but apparently that isn't soon enough..he is becoming such a pain in the ass...he needs a life!!!! So does Mag!!!
I should shower and get ready for the shore tonight!!!! I am so excited...shore food is amazing...almost as amazing as the coconut shrimp I had last night for dinner with the girls!!!! Yesterday was girls day at Lauras and it was delightful..I will miss everyone when we all leave for school..at least I get to take Janine with me=)