The Wedding Has Come and Gone

I can't believe I'm saying this...but the wedding is over....and it was fabulous. I guess I am a slightly biased since I did plan most of the wedding lol, but I don't care it was great! Friday started off being all kinds of hectic, but in the end it was all worth it. All the planning, the spending hours at the salon, the slightly uncomfortable dress, agonizing over my toast....it was all worth it because by 8pm Friday none of that mattered. The wedding went off perfectly, the weather held out and was beautiful, the food and booze were good, and I'm pretty sure everyone had a good time. My favorite part was the pretty grounds and being outside on the balcony. I loved sitting out there and drinking with friends and family. I didn't really dance too much at the wedding, but I'm blaming that on my very tight dress. After finishing my delicious dinner the dress just became too tight to bust a move in lol. But it's okay because I got to catch up with a lot of people and make fun of the bad outfits and drunken fools...aka my favorite pasttime. Now that the wedding is over I get to relax. I'm starting up at work again tomorrow, but my hours will be light this summer. I figure since it's my last summer before being a full fledge grown up I should enjoy it and I have enough money in the bank to slack a little and stay at AH and just have fun.

Please tell me this is all a bad dream

Sometimes you have to wonder if God is really starting to hate you. This past week has been so bad I'm praying every morning I'm going to wake up and realize it's all been a bad dream. It all started last Monday when my Mom called to tell me my Dad was in the hospital. When I had seen him on Sunday when he came to Stockton to move some of my crap out I knew he seemed a bit off. Turns out he was having heart problems and he has now been in the hospital since last Monday. He was at Kennedy down the street which was nice cause he was so close I could just pop in and out, but then it got serious and he needed minor surgery so now he's at Lourdes which is farther away. So basically it's my first week of summer and I've spent about nine hours a day at hospitals. It is so weird to be visiting my Dad in the hospital, it's scary cause it makes me feel very old. My parents are too damn old and they better get healthier cause I don't want any more hospital visits for another twenty years! Walking into the hospital Tuesday night after I moved home was really odd. Seeing my Dad in the hospital bed was surreal because it has always been him visiting me in the past. In a strange way, part of me actually peferred it that way because I would feel more in control of the situation. It is hard to just sit there and stare at his heart monitors for hours hoping his heart rate goes lower. He started last week at 170 which is like insanely high and now he is down to like 110ish most of the time and 140 if he is moving around, which still isn't good but for now we'll take it. I know he is going to be okay once the meds take effect, but it's crazy to think he might not make it to the wedding if they can't get this under control by Friday! I can't even imagine Karen walking down the aisle alone or him not being there to dance with her. Everyone is trying to keep their spirits high for my Dad's sake and not talk about that, mostly because it's everyones biggest fear! I hope anyone who is wondering why I have been half alive the past week reads this. I haven't been able to call anyone back because getting cell phone service in a hospital is impossible and by the time I come home at 10pm I'm sooo tired from waking up at like 8am that I crash and forget to call and update people. Anywayz thanks to everyone for all the concern...it's so true that you know who your true friends are when the shit hits the fan! Thanks again and I hope to see everyone soon!!!!

The End is Near

The end of this school year is very bittersweet for me. While I am of course excited for summer and being done with classes, it is hard to think about having to leave in a week. This time next week I will be home a whole day already. Where did the last three years go? I can't believe I'm going to be a senior in a week. Even more than that I can't believe I am leaving this apartment in a week. Living with three other girls isn't always easy, but for the most part it has been amazing and I don't want to ever leave. We always knew the two years would go by fast and they did. It's going to be very emotional packing up all the stuff and leaving next Tuesday because not only are we no longer living in this apartment, but we are no longer all living together. I can't believe the Bially is graduating...it's so happy, yet sad. It makes me want to turn back time to freshman year in the crappy dorm. Back then we hated the small rooms and crappy caf food, but looking back all I can remember is the craziness and the fun.
I'm really starting to feel like a grown up recently. I have been making a lot of changes recently and taking steps toward the future. It's funny how when you know you only have a year of safety left you realize that you really need to change all aspects of your life and become a grown up. I just finished filling out my senior internship application. I hope the board likes my essays and gives me a good placement. That could make or break my first few years post Stockton. I've been thinking recently that maybe I will go away for grad school. I figure I may never have another oppurtunity to just pack up and leave and there isn't really anything holding me here anymore. It will of course be hard to leave my friends and family, but I would be sure to keep in touch and I wouldn't stay away forever...maybe just two years or so.
Well that's about it for now. I'm so stressing about this weekend...loads of studying to do and a stupid africa paper to write! Once Tuesday evening hits life is less complicated...sad, but less complicated.

This Week Blows

This week blows a whole lot. It's only Tuesday morning and already a lot of bad stuff has happened. Clancy passed away from cancer on Sunday and even though I wasn't that close to her or the boys the past few years it still sucks. When someone dies it makes you think about everyone in your life that has died and that is just always depressing. I didn't get emotional when I heard about her passing, but I think that is just because I feel very detached from my family while here at school. I'm sure the funeral on Thursday is going to be very diffcult since my aunts and uncles and my folks are going to be a mess. Dealing with death is so terrible it kind of makes me wonder why I am choosing hospice as my first choice for my internship next fall. I hope I am as tough as I think I am so that I can remain emotionally stable while helping my clients. Bottom line is that cancer sucks and I don't get how people can watch someone they love die of lung cancer and then light up a cigarette. I don't think I will ever understand that appeal of smoking and honestly I hope I never do.
Today was another bad day with all that happened at Virginia Tech. It's so scary to think that something so random can just happen to people my age. It was awkward sitting in class today thinking that the exact same thing could happen at any college, including Stockton. I don't understand how one person could ever be so angry that they felt the need to kill so many innocent people. It sounds terrible, but situations like this really make you look differently at the people sitting around you in class that you really know nothing about.
Anywayz onto happier things. This time tomorrow night my Africa paper will be finished and I will be much happier. The end of the semester doesn't seem to be going too badly. I just want to be done with all of this and have four months to do nothing. The wedding will be here before we know it. This weekend is Berto's big party so I'm looking forward to that and seeing everyone. I'm focusing on the good to get me through this awful week.
The only good news I got today was that Janine and I are getting our seeing eye puppy on May 2nd...well technically it's Janine's puppy, but since I will be living with the beast for 9 months I am part owner/ babysitter. We don't know her name yet, but its a female german shepard. I wish they let us name the dog...hopefully she will have a cool name. And since today is her day of birth I will conclude this blog by wishing Janine a happy birthday!!!! woo hoo for the roommate!!!

Pause

It's weird being home for spring break. It makes me feel like I don't really go to school, like my other life at Stockton is on pause until Sunday. I guess this a good thing because that life was really starting to stress me out! This semester has just been really ugly for me. I've had so much work between classes and the wedding that I feel like I'm constantly on over-drive. I'm counting down the days till school and over and the wedding is finally here. It's kind of sad because I know the wedding is going to be really nice, but this have been so stressful that a small part of me wishes it was just over already...not that I'm about to say that to Karen. As each little piece falls into place I'm starting to feel better about the whole thing though. We are finishing making the invitations on Wednesday and I went for a dress fitting today and my top is coming along nicely. I also got my shoes today and they are very cute!!! I can't believe how soon May is...I hope everything continues to fall into place.
After the break there is only 31 days of school left this year. I can't believe I am 31 days away from being a senior. The idea of it scares me a lot. I feel like I haven't accomplished enough on a personal or professional level to be graduating in a year....I'm hoping that it's just nerves and that I am not really behind. I was looking into grad schools tonight online. I really would love to go to Penn, but that would be like almost $70K and I'd have to go straight for two years. Rutgers, Widener, and West Chester are more reasonable for MSW's they would be around $30-40K and I could take my time and go course by course for most of them, since I'm going to have to work at least part-time during school. Basically I'm going to be poor for at least the next ten years, maybe more, and I need to find someone who wants to support me. And I need to start doing more volunteer work because schools really want that and I haven't done hardly any in the past few years.
The weather this week has been amazing. It makes me want to go the beach!!! It even inspired me to buy a bathing suit the other day. It's a cute brown with white little dots two-piece. And I actually don't hate it on me...shocker!!! Hopefully I will get to spend some time outside this week and enjoy the weather. I have a paper to write all day tomorrow about Africa, but going to Cheesecake for dinner is my reward =) Wednesday I have to do the envelopes for the invites and run a few errands so I will have to squeeze in some sun time! Thursday is sewing day since I haven't even opened my sewing machine from Christmas and Mag is getting pissed hehe, so I'm going to sew her a pillow or something simple lol. Then it's a weekend full of wedding business and hanging out. And before I know it my week of freedom will be over and it will be back to Stockton for another 31 days...just where I want to be =(

Spring break...so close I can taste it!!!!!!!!

This week is feeling very long and it's only Tuesday!!!! I hate taking care of all the little things before spring break! I'm trying to tie up a lot of loose ends so that I will have less to do over the break and more time to sleep and do nothing. I always think spring break is going to be so relaxing, but then I make too many appointments and plans and before I know it the week is over and I didn't get any rest at all. I already have doctor's appointments and wedding issues and work filling like four of my days off!!! Hopefully I will keep the other days open for some much needed rest and some hanging out with friends!
I'm pretty proud of myself for keeping on top of work this semester. I finally caught up with my politics assignments yesterday and I even did my homework that isn't due until after spring break! Daly will be so impressed lol. Tomorrow I'm getting back my psych grade and I'm very scared about that! I'm kind of praying for snow so I won't have to endure that until after the break. But I can't really have a snow storm right now because I need to go sit in the library tomorrow and watch three hours of africa videos!!! Discover Africa is a really interesting class, but these assignments are killing me!!!! Over the break I have two five page papers due for that class!!! Another oh so fun thing to occupy my relaxation time!
On a happier note, this past saturday was the Rave Part Deux and it was amazing!!! Aside from the fact that our bitch CA threatened to bust us. The jello shots were amazing if I do say so myself and I think everyone enjoyed our creative beer pong table! We must do at least one more rave before we leave the apartment of fabulous forever, we are thinking the second week in April! Rave Part Tres...holla!!!!

It's gonna be a long ass 40 days....

Today is only the first day of Lent..well really the first two hours of Lent and Jackie is already dying. I decided to give up soda for Lent because I always admire people who give up something that is difficult for them and I decided to be hardcore this year and do this myself. It is already extremely tough...I love soda!!!! The can of cherry coke in the fridge is calling my name!!!!!!!! I'm not even sure why I'm bothering to do this. I'm not really a fan of the Catholic faith anymore since I've stopped going to Church and I disagree with several of the key elements of the faith, but I am still giving up the soda because I see it as more of growth thing than a Lent/ Jesus thing. Like obviously Lent is a Catholic thing, but I really want to prove to myself that I can stick to this no soda pact and that I am a strong in willl when I want to be. So I figure I will make this sacrafice during Lent so I can suffer along with other people. I've also decided to do some positive things this Lent. I have been using the f-word recently and I don't know why? I really think it is a pointless word that makes a person sound dumb and I don't really know how, but I recently became addicted to using it. The point is I want it out of my vocabulary so I am going to try to not say it at all for the next 40 days. Even in those situations when you are extremely pissed and the situation really warrants a nice f-bomb lol. Lastly for Lent I am going to try to be less negative. I sometimes tend to focus on the negative side of things or I wil catch myself making a negative comment when I don't need to. So I've also decided that I'm going to try to be more positive and happy. I'm hoping the next 40 days will make me a better person, that is if I survive.

Tell Me Is This Fate

It's 88 days until the wedding and I'm stressing hardcore!!! Planning this wedding is making me realize I am either never marrying or I'm just going to elope because I would never want to stress people out as much as this wedding is stressing me out!!! Every little thing seems to be turning into a disaster!!! Well only the parts that are my problem really. Mag picked up my dress yesterday, I tried it on and the skirt is tight!!! I can get it to zipper and close, but it bunches and looks awkward because it comes up sooo freakin high!!! Yeah my top will cover this issue, but after a few drinks and some dinner, I'm afraid I'm gonna pop!!!! Then today I tried on the trial top I had made and of course it looks like crap! I feel awful because Donna spent so much time on it, but it really looks horrible on me so I'm going to have to go to another person and get a different pattern made. To make things worse when I called Karen and told her about how tiny my skirt was she tells me that Melanine got a size four skirt too and hers fits her just fine, she doesn't need any alterations at all. Like that makes me feel any better! I'm competeing with a girl who is 5'10 and could be a freakin model to see who is gonna look better in the dress!!!! Anyways I hate life and I'm going to look like a big fat piece of crap at the wedding...that is if I can even fit into whatever the hell my dress winds up looking like!
Of course the wedding isn't my only issue right now, school is also the devil!!! My classes are just so random and boring this semester that I am putting in zero effort and that is going to bite me on the ass very, very soon! I've spent the first part of this semester text messaging people and doodling my way through every single class and now test time is starting to roll around...ut-o!!!! I had my first music test last week, a lot uglier than I expected, but I did take notes in-between the text messaging so I'm hoping I survived with at least a B. My first paper is due for my Africa class this Wednesday and of course I haven't even started it!!! I watched the five hours worth of videos and starting reading the endless chapters of the book, now I have to get crackin on writing the five page summary. I know I will get it done on time, but I just can't motivate myself to start. I feel like I can't get five minutes to relax until May, every second that I'm not physically doing something I'm stressing about not doing something or thinking about/ planning what I have to do next. Once May 2nd hits school is over and on May 12th the wedding will be over and life will be carefree....I hope.

Running Out of Time!!!!

AHHHH!!!!! There is less than one week of break left and I haven't accomplished half of my goals. I just bought my books for next semester the other night, which is always fun. I just love when one professor requires 5 different books for a stupid cognate course that isn't even in my major. Stupid liberal arts requirements lol!!! Anywayz this break is going by way too fast and between working small amounts and planning the shower and hanging out with my friends I feel like I haven't had more than five minutes to just sit and chill. I did manage to read 3 books over the break, but I started my 4th book this week, The Thornbirds, which I have no hope of finishing by next week. It's like 700 pages and I have like zero free time between now and Monday when I move back to Stockton. The wedding is like 120 days away and its sucking up all my time already!!! Today we accomplished a lot though. Karen got bridal shoes and we looked at China patterns. China is an odd thing...you never really use it, you're always afraid you're gonna break it, and there are like 3 million different kinds and they all look exactly the same...yet picking the right China pattern is a huge deal! I just don't get it lol! It's funny how the little shit turns into a big deal sometimes. Now I'm being a mo and trying to make a huge list of all the stuff I need to handle before heading back to school while I paint my nails and lounge in my footie pajamas!!!! That's right they make footie pj's for adults and santa/ mag got me a pair and they are heaven!!!! It's like being a kid again =)

Where did the time go???

Holy crap its 2007!!!!! Where did 2006 go??? While laying in bed today taking my post-party nap I was thinking about the past year. People always say you should survey the previous year and see where you went wrong and what you can do differently the following year. The only problem is I had a hard time remembering what the hell I did all year, and then I realized that in itself is not a good thing. I know in reality I did a variety of things....work, school, hung out with friends etc. But I guess I'm a little saddened by the fact that I didn't do anything extra special that really stands out in my mind. To make this long story shorter, I have decided that I have two resolutions this year. My first resolution is the same one I make for myself every year and I think in recent years I am actually getting better at keeping. And that is to stop sweating the little things in life. Getting all worked up about stuff I can't change is just too much stress and I don't need it! Also to expand this resolution for 2007, I'm going to try and always do what I truly want to do and not be fake. I'm so tired of people being phony or feeling like you need to be a certain way to fit in and I think that is ridiculous. I've decided for 2007 I want to be more like one of those people who does exactly what they want to do and doesn't give a damn what other people think. After giving this part some thought though I realized this could turn me into someone cynical and uncaring so I will only do this in moderation.
My second resolution and the reason I wrote this now very long winded blog in the first place is because I want to do several memorable and important things this year. So I've decided every month throughout 2007 I am going to do something I have never done before or something important that will benefit other people and/or society. I haven't yet figured out what these 12 or so things are going to be, but it's only 1am on January 2nd so I have 364 days to figure them out!!!

I love Christmas!!!

Christmas has come and gone and it was different than any other year, but fabulous in its own way. Karen had work again so we opened our presents on Christmas Eve. I made out well as usual..lots of clothes, barnes and noble giftcard, ihome, a snowbaby, the price is rite dvd game, and the usuals socks, candy and a toothbrush. And since my folks love to surprise me with something extra I woke up Christmas morning to find one extra present under the tree..a big one!!! A sewing machine!!!! I had asked for one, but really wasn't expecting to get one so I was very shocked and happy when I did. I'm a little scared though cause it looks very complicated. I hope I can read the directions and figure out how to actually use it! And in typical Mag and Jack fashion...a nice crisp benji franklin was waiting by my eggs and bacon on the kitchen table =)
I just love Christmas! I honestly don't even care about the presents that much its just such a laid back and fun day. I love the little things about Christmas, like having a nice family breakfast, seeing all the crazy relatives, laughing about the lame joke gifts the aunts buy each other, and of course this year watching the eagles!!!! Thank god they won otherwise my drunken family would have caused a riot probably!!!

There's Magic in the Air This Evening, Magic in the Air....

This is going to be a very happy blog because the universe is being so gooooood to Jackie right now. I think it all began about a week ago and since then practically everything has been awesome!!! The semester is over and it wasn't that awful in the end. Right now I have three A's and I'm waiting for my health and wellness grade. I'm praying for an A, but I'm thinking I'm gonna have to live with an A- or a B+ cause I was so pooped from my other classes that I slacked on the final. Oh well!!! I really just want to know my grade, but of course my professor is taking her sweet time posting them. Then again, if the grade is bad I don't wanna know cause they could just kill my spree of fabulous!!! I'm just glad the holidays are here and that the rest of my friends will be home shortly....I miss everyone!!!!
I'm really starting to think my spree of fabulous and good mood has something to do with the holiday season. It's amazing how into the holidays we all still become even when we are grown up. How you still watch the same cheesy movies and listen to the same songs you loved as a kid. Each year when the holiday season is approaching I always think about how much of a hassle shopping is and how little money I have to buy presents, but its the week before Christmas and none of that seems to matter anymore. Anyways I'm starting to ramble now, but I am just really full of holiday cheer and I'm kind of surprised by how much holiday spirit I have this year. I think maybe all the holiday movies put me into the spirit. I have watched all of my favorites this year- Elf, Muppet Christmas Carol, Polar Express, Christmas Vacation, It's a Wonderful Life, Miracle on 34th Street, and The Santa Clause....they are all soooo fabulous. If anyone hasn't seen one or more of these, get to it cause you're missing out!!!!
I'm almost done my christmas shopping which is another reason I am happy. I hope everyone likes what I got them!!! I have to pick a day this week and wrap like crazy. I'm also supposed to help Mag wrap for fun lol. Tomorrow is cookie day with Karen. We may have gone a little overboard this year. We promised a lot of people cookies and now tomorrow is gonna be hardcore. We are planning on making like nine dozen cookies...we will probably die halfway through, but it should make for a few laughs since Jack and Bailey will be getting in the way I'm sure!

Sigh of Relief

The semester is really almost over now. Today was absolute hell...two finals back to back..econ and crim!!! I seriously have wanted to die the past few days...I have been so stressed!!!! I have been staying up until 4am or later typing endless study guides and reading chapters and now it is all done!!!! It's both scary and rewarding walking out of a final exam. On the one hand you are so freakin glad that it is over and life can get back to normal, but it's also kind of scary to think that you can't do anything to change things now. Once the final is over that's it! I'm pretty sure I did well on these two today so that makes me super happy!!! Two more to go until freedom!!!! Next Thursday can't come soon enough!!!!
I got a parking ticket again today even though I was told I had special permission to park on campus cause of my disability so someone at Stockton is gonna be hearing from me in the morning!!!! It was quite a kick in the ass to be so happy that my finals were done only to walk out to my car and see that damn ticket!!!!! Since when is parking in a normal parking space a crime???? Damn rent-a-cops!!!!
I can't believe Christmas is sooo soon and I seriously have not bought any gifts!!!! I have two things purchased so far and I don't even know who I am giving the one thing to. I really need to kick things into gear when I get home next week...oh home how I love it!!!!! I can't wait to see everyone, eat real food, and sleep in my bed on the floor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss my double bed=)

Hard to Describe

I can't believe its almost December!!!! Thanksgiving has come and gone and I don't feel like it really happened at all. The food was pretty good. I was slightly dissapointed because the stuffing wasn't as good as I'd hoped. I put a little too much onion and according to Jack not enough celery. I wrote down some notes for adjustments to next year's receipe.
It's officially crunch time. Three weeks to go and the semester is over. I feel completely un-prepared. I have two finals next week and we are no where near done covering all the topics on them. They are of course my two ugliest finals...so this weekend is not going to be fun for me. The next three weeks are going to go by so fast and be so insane I don't know how I am going to ever squeeze in time to do Christmas shopping!!! I hate being so stressed out before the holidays. It really crushes the holiday spirit. I can't complain since we get done on the 14th, but by the time I get home for Christmas the house is already decorated and the tree has already been bought and it's kinda sad. I can't wait to be done with school and not have the upcoming Christmas season symbolize finals. Since I've been looking into grad schools recently and would like to get my PhD this might not be for like another 7 years...wow that sounds so long and painful!!!
My health and wellness class is the strangest class I've ever taken. Its my first online class ever and it is so odd. Every week we have to do two online quizzes which are impossible and I suck at...they are the trickiest multiple choice questions ever!!! I keep trying to get them all right but I always wind up with a 90 or 95...not that I'm complaing lol. Anyways along with the quizzes are these discussion boards we have to participate in, two a week. The questions aren't hard they just always require a lot of thought and sometimes I just don't know what to put and I hate that other people can read my answers. This week we covered death and dying and I just finished the discussion posts. The one question was do you believe in an afterlife and if so describe it. I of course believe in heaven, but asking someone to describe heaven and make other people understand their view is really difficult and made me think a lot. After a lot of thought I put that I feel heaven is like a big party where everyone drinks some beers and sits around a kitchen table with their family and friends and just hangs out. I'm thinking my view of heaven is very Irish. I basically view heaven to be a typical family gathering where everyone eats, drinks and catches up with each other. It's loud and very entertaining and no one leaves the table even though the kitchen chairs hurt your ass after a while cause your having too much fun to care. This probably sounds very lame, but it sounds good to me lol. I'm very curious to see what other people post throughout the week. I wonder if anyone will comment back and like my view of heaven.

This is Elf, what's your favorite color???

I watched Elf tonight in between the football games..that movie is damn funny!!! I had never seen it before and I was in a laughing kind of mood and I just thought it was sooo hysterical!! I love being in the type of mood where you find everything to be sooo much funnier than it really is. When Karen and I hang out I feel like that always happens. We like to laugh at stupid shows and drive Mag crazy with our stupid comments...I love days like those. Anywayz watching Elf really kicked me into the holiday spirit. I was already excited about Thanksgiving after my trip to the supermarket on Friday. I decided Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday cause the food is amazing...Mag makes a mean bird!!!! And Thanksgiving is better than Christmas even without the presents because their is all the excitment of the upcoming Christmas holiday!!! Like once Christmas morning is over the rest of the day is just kind of blah with a so-so dinner that doesn't always include turkey..lame ass ham lol...but Thanksgiving is fabulous all day and then there is always black friday which to Jackie has nothing to do with shopping and might as well be changed to round two friday!!!! I heart leftovers!!!! This year we are having like 11 people and 4 pies!!! That is way too large a pie to person ratio which means Jackie will eating pie for days...I love it!!!!!

Everything You Own in a Box to the Left

I dyed my hair tonight!!!! Well I should say my fabulous roommate/ hair stylist Mr.Christy dyed my hair. I was growing tired of the whole blonde highlights thing so I decided it was time to go back to dark. And since I am po and not able to afford to go to the salon Mr. Christy was the way to go!!! It's still in the towel right now cause I'm too lazy to blowdry it so I will see in a little while how it looks...its so hard to tell cause when you get out of the shower it of course looks black cause its wet..lets hope it lightens as it dries or else I may have black hair again for a little while lol!!!
In other news I'm going home this weekend for Karen's birthday dinner tomorrow night and to work on Friday and hang with Kelly and to visit Stev on Saturday!!!! All three shall be fabulous!!!! Hopefully Karen likes her gift, I bought it today at Pier One..its a vase she said she liked. Since she basically picked it out I'm thinking the odds are in my favor she will like it. I'm don't know where we are going to dinner, but I love food so hopefully somewhere good. I'm liking food too much recently...I think I put on a couple lbs. Which I know isn't a bad thing since everyone tells me I'm too thin, but I'm worried that if I don't start to exercise a little it's all going to settle in my stomach and that would suck!!!
I don't know why but I have the urge to go see a movie. I haven't been to a movie in a theater since like the summer and I have really wanted to go all week. I just keep renting movies, but its not the same. I really wanted to see Saw 3 cause the first two were so good but I never got the chance..guess I'll just rent it later lol. Maybe I'll go see that movie Borat..everyone on campus keeps saying how funny it is so I might have to check it out.
I can't wait till winter break so I can read some good books!!! I just ordered five books off Amazon and I'm so excited to read them..yes I'm excited about reading I am a nerd hehe!!! I ordered the Glass Castle because my professor recommended it. And I am still on my quest to read some good classic type books so I got In Cold Blood, The Thornbirds, Flowers in the Attic, and East of Eden..all recommended by random folks. Hopefully they are as good as people say.

INSANITY!!!!

WOW!!! I haven't updated this blog in eons!!!! Thats because I have like zero spare time. The only time I'm not running around like crazy is between the hours of 12am-3am which is when I'm usually catching up on homework or thinking about the 20 million things I still need to get done for the week. School has been going great, but it keeps me uber busy. I rocked all my midterms that was exciting. Its always good to get those done cause it makes ya confident for the finals..hopefully!!! On top of school I'm still trying to help plan the wedding which is gettting sooo close..its like 190 days or something according to the knot.com countdown!!! Everytime I log onto that site to search for some info I need I dread reading that little counter in the corner. It might as well be a giant flashing sign screaming how little time I have left to get things under control. I still have to plan and throw a bridal shower, get my dress fitted and altered, find a date, buy a gift, make favors, write a toast, and like three million other little details that I don't yet know about!!!! Weddings are soo much work and sooo much money and it isn't even my wedding...being Maid of Honor is hardcore!!!
In other news, Halloween was yesterday!!! I was a leaf blower..it was fabulous!!!! I found the idea online and since I have a limited budget it was the perfect $3 idea lol!!!! The pictures came out pretty funny and everyone got a good laugh once I explained to them what I was.
Tonight the roommates and I watched the Break-Up...I didn't like it. It wasn't that funny like everyone said it was and it didn't end well. I'm sorry but I like to see a happy/resolved ending and when it doesn't happen that pisses me off. Yeah I get it real life is complicated and messy and unable to be resolved in an hour and a half, but Hollywood isn't real life. When I rent a movie I'm not looking for realistic...if I want to be complicate and messy I'd watch real people's lives. That is my beef for this evening.

P.S.

The Eagles kicked ass today and it was fabulous!!!! Lito is beast!!!!

My name is Jackie and I am a chocolate addict....

Okay so basically I've been eating complete junk food since coming back to school a month ago and I feel yucky. I don't know if its a combonation of eating junk food, like endless twix bars and doritos, and stress or what but my skin is starting to look bad. And I'm getting fat!!! Since I just looked on the knot the other day and realized its only 213 days till Karen's wedding this is not kosher. Being in a wedding is really stressful..and this isn't even my wedding!!! Being maid of honor means you have to help plan everything and throw a freakin bridal shower and other shit I don't know how to do. Thank God Karen's friends are cool and gonna help me out a lot!!! I am stressin about the skin issue though cause I wanna look good in the pictures and stuff. I don't really like being in the spot light so I'm glad all eyes will be on Karen, but there are still those few moments when people will focus on me, like when I walk down the aisle where I will probably fall and when I give my toast that no one will find touching or funny lol, and I'd like to look as nice as possible at these awkward moments lol. Anyways I went to the derm and she put me on a few different things so hopefully that helps. Other than that she told me to watch my diet and try to minimize stress...since the second is almost impossible to do while at school I decided to try the diet thing. As of thursday I officially gave up chocolate..and it has not been easy!!!! Everything in this apartment has chocolate in it..we have cookies, ice cream, reeses, twix, mr good bars, churches, baby ruths, butterfingers, and chocolate covered pretzels...I want to die!!!! Its so hard to not eat it when its sitting right in front of you..literally as I type this the candy bowl is staring at me =(
Anywayz thats the reason I wrote this blog..its my ode to no chocolate..4 days sober and truckin along...

EAGLES!!!!!!!!!

Last night was absolutely amazing!!!!! I got to do something I've been dreaming of doing since I was 8 years old watching football on Sunday on the couch with my dad!!!! I went to the EAGLES game!!!! People always say how much cooler football is live and how amazing the atmosphere is when your in that stadium full of people..and they are sooo right!!!! Janine and I had sooo much fun at the game..the fans were fierce and since it was a monday night game everyone was extra pumped!!!! Of course the game was even more amazing since we won lol!!!! Also cause our seats were great..26 rows back on the 30. I felt like I could reach out and touch McNabb lol...and I got some bangin pictures on my camera phone!!!! I still can't believe we actually went...the whole way there we both couldn't believe we were going. My entire family thought I was kidding when I told them. I know I'm not athletic at all..mostly because I am uber lazy, but also because I am a tiny little woman. But I do watch a hell of a lot of tv and I've been watching the eagles since I can remember. And I think I know a lot about football for a 20 year old girl...I know all about the game itself and I can name almost all of the eagles starters and a few select players from most of the NFL teams. I think thats fairly impressive lol!!! So boo to anyone who thinks I don't know football or shouldn't have gotten to go see the game..boo!!!!
Anywayz the game was amazing and definitely like top five on the list of coolest shit I've ever done!!!! I've now seen an eagles game, a flyers game, and like millions of phillies game..the eagles game by far was the coolest..although the flyers game was quite pimp too!!! One day when I am rich I will have season tickets to all the teams and be one of those cool people who knows the people who sit around them since they all have season tickets!!!! And of course when I have my season tickets I will have to tailgate so I'm gonna buy a camper and be one of those cool people who spends the whole game day in a parking lot in philly cause that is pimp!!!! And since nice people have shared their season tickets with me for free..I will do the same when I am the rich one...so stay friends with me and you may luck out in like 15 years hehe!!!!